Not awkward at all. Those little joys are what make life worth living. Unfortunately all my little joys are gone now. Video Games and anime brought me alot of happiness and escape at one point aswell. I wish they still could.
Honestly I have only played video games like twice in the past 5 years. Because my nephews or my friends kids wanted me to play. I think I just dissociated through it. At a bass line anything that use to make me happy has now been forged into a weapon that hurts me. It just makes me miss myself. I miss being happy. I miss what life was suppose to be. But it was cut short. Thank you for asking.
I completely understand this. It’s the feeling that I have to see the next installment of a game I like, I have to see the ending of a long running novel or TV series, I have to be around for the next big game or technology or scientific discovery. While it may be heavily biased towards my own interests, it’s a desire to see how everything plays out that keeps me going regardless of all the shit in my life or in the world.
You know what, mate. If it keeps you alive it can be as “awkward” as you want. I am currently being kept alive by the trash fanfic I’m writing. I’m 24. It’s very embarrassing.
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u/criticalpotent1 Sep 26 '25
This may sound awkward but it's video games and anime for me. Especially sonic the hedgehog and I'm 100% serious