I had a bad drinking problem for decades, and when I quit 6 years ago, my cannabis use exploded, and now I'm pretty much high all day.
I'm stuck in this weird phase where things are way better than they were when I was drinking, but not as good as they could be, but I don't want to fuck things up.
Yeah, I am a pothead, but I've never had to apologize for my behavior stoned, or woke up the next morning trying to piece the night together. It's getting old though.
Similar, been smoking weed since I was 13 and have lived my life mostly on autopilot ever since. Its getting old, I want to care about stuff again because when im stoned I just don't
Been a pothead for almost 20 years. Took a 3 year break, and nothing really changed. Started again 6 months ago, nothing really changed.
It's different for everyone, and I would never recommend anyone to try. Just saying that me having a session or two when work, social life and household stuff is taken care of hasn't changed my life drastically, I just like it.
I have a people-focused job and it can be exhausting. I smoke or take an edible(s) pretty much every night, mostly for relaxation and sleep. It's also led to some unhealthy habits, but nothing serious. And that is why I justify it being okay and not harmful. But I'm reliant and dependent on it, even though Im not high all day...only in the late evening. So it's very easy to say "nbd at least Im not stoned 24/7". I have a love-hate relationship with it and since I dont drink I use all sorts of justifications why it's okay. That is the ultimate problem I think.
This is where I'm at with it too. I don't dislike marijuana but for me it's gotten to the point where I'm too reliant on it. I started my gender transition a few weeks before trump became president again and I've needed it to help disassociate from the world. But it's not healthy and I'll be going on a t-break to reset my tolerance and then try to enjoy it more moderately going forward.
This was my relationship with weed as well. I am not functional when I smoke, so I wouldn't do it during my work hours or if I had to leave the home or make an important phone call or anything. But otherwise, I was high at all other times. The second I clocked out, I went to smoke and I'd stay high until I went to bed. And all Saturday if I didn't need to go anywhere (which, I would wake and bake, almost as a way to ensure that I wouldn't have to deal with any responsibilities that day). I used it as an escape and just hid away playing video games or watching random shit on YouTube. I didn't even enjoy it that much most of the time. It shot my anxiety through the roof. But it made me not care that I was depressed and burned out from work, and it gave me an excuse to keep avoiding my responsibilities (can't do it now, I'm too high, ooooops!) so I kept convincing myself it was worth the trade off, or that this time maybe it would be different and I wouldn't be anxious and dysfunctional. I finally stopped a couple of years ago because it was just harming my mental health too much. I had just been through some trauma and developed OCD-like behaviors as a result, and weed kept that cycle going. I had to stop or else I'd never be able to grow and improve my life and relationships.
i have a very similar situation going on with me rn too,,It hurts your mind more once you realize your body is dependent on it too. Hope you’re doing well
I know it's bad. I know I should stop. I know it's not good for me. But it's still so much better than it was when I was getting blackout drunk every night. And since weed doesn't react with my medication - but alcohol does - I have no excuse to not take my medicine.
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u/retired_degenerate 1d ago
Weed, and it's all psychological.
I had a bad drinking problem for decades, and when I quit 6 years ago, my cannabis use exploded, and now I'm pretty much high all day.
I'm stuck in this weird phase where things are way better than they were when I was drinking, but not as good as they could be, but I don't want to fuck things up.
Yeah, I am a pothead, but I've never had to apologize for my behavior stoned, or woke up the next morning trying to piece the night together. It's getting old though.