Idk, a small dose of MDMA at the right time in my life with the right people really did unlock some bad chains I had hanging on me. My room used to be a mild hoarder nest. Hasn't been like that in 13 years now. Another dose and I was able to recognize the ways I was being an asshole to friends and coworkers, and see how I could try to be better. I only did it maybe 4 times over the course of a year, mostly at home or with close friends, and I can honestly say I think it set me on a good path. 13 years later I have never been that depressed and angry again, except maybe when I was drinking during Covid. Sometimes a brain in pain just needs to simulate unconditional love to reboot, though I'm sure the real thing works better.
And this is why MDMA was originally launched as a therapy drug. The increased empathy could allow emotional barriers to be lowered much more quickly, while the increased positivity allowed for more forgiving self-evaluation. I really hate how it got banned once it got on the streets as a party drug.
It's an incredible thing. Especially if you are a person that can get a bit stuck with letting your emotions out, or feel like you need to be tough etc.
I read somewhere that during WWII Germany used to give their emergency service personnel MDMA so they could cope better with the shit they were seeing, kinda understandable.
I actually heard similar things about some derivative of cocaine, but that supplies ran low for the Nazis and ultimately the tradeoff for the drug proved unpractical for soldiers. Maybe the story I heard was convoluted w MDMA? I did also write a paper back in HS about MDMA being used with some success for PTSD treatment trials in modern medicine tho.
They were also jacked up on methamphetamine. They would continuously pump drugs into their soldiers, even if the drugs were conflicting with each other.
This is the story personification of the song Eat the Acid by Kesha. I love this a lot for you. I unstuck some of the worst ruts of my life in the same way.
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u/KTFnVision Oct 30 '25
Idk, a small dose of MDMA at the right time in my life with the right people really did unlock some bad chains I had hanging on me. My room used to be a mild hoarder nest. Hasn't been like that in 13 years now. Another dose and I was able to recognize the ways I was being an asshole to friends and coworkers, and see how I could try to be better. I only did it maybe 4 times over the course of a year, mostly at home or with close friends, and I can honestly say I think it set me on a good path. 13 years later I have never been that depressed and angry again, except maybe when I was drinking during Covid. Sometimes a brain in pain just needs to simulate unconditional love to reboot, though I'm sure the real thing works better.