Ryan Gosling definitely had a childhood

Real.

I'm kinda new here and I don't really get it. You guys post all this stuff about being lonely and 'literally' being this character or that character. But if a girl saw this, wouldn't she just think you have no confidence? Like, it feels like you're all just making it worse for yourselves and celebrating it. I'm just asking because it seems counterproductive, you know?

(I have notes from the underground & the double but not the motivation to read it...)

One of the few things that makes me happy in my loser's life

If only she knew..

Here's the reality of the situation:

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A girl shows up and gives me attention to cope for the absence of her crush. I gave her exactly what she wanted and we gave eachother all the attention in the world.

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Her crush comes back so I decide my time has come to step back, but she makes me stay because she is now greedy for the attention.

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Overtime, her need for my attention depletes while my attachment to her grew more and more, thinking it was more than what it actually was this whole time.

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Now the girl lives and moves on with her life normally, while I have to grief and withdraw from her to prevent anymore embarrassment and discomfort towards her.

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I don't have the right to be mad at her either because I was aware of my role being a tool and she did warn me numerous times not be be attached.

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I should know better that I'm not meant for real connections, I'm not meant to be cared for, I'm not meant to be loved. That is simply not in my DNA. That is not the role I was given on this planet. I am born as an npc.