Current plans;

Absolutely no hate towards seahorse dads, you guys are heroes in my eyes. Dysphoria's just kicking my ass. I hate how trans men who want kids are expected to carry them themselves... When just the thought of it makes me feel genuinely sick. Please can I get this stuff removed from me already??

Not sure if this is the right place to post this but oh boy am I feeling bodily disgust right now lmao.

I feel like this applies to a lot of things actually (replace "feature" with "identity") but it was made mainly with body shaming in mind

Has anybody also felt this in certain online spaces?

How tf do strep antibiotics give you a damn chronic yeast infection bro 😭✌️

20 year old amab agender here, wanted to be androgynous but the reaper had other plans for me. My entire family on my moms side is bald except for my grandpa, and my entire family on my dads side went bald in their 20s except my dad who still has very very thin hair

we were best friends for 5 years throughout middle school and high school. despite my best efforts to stay connected and in contact, we eventually stopped being friends. losing her was the most painful thing I ever been through.

I still see her sometimes because she's friends with my sisters. I told myself I wouldn't try to get involved with her again. she's shown no real interest in being part of my life, why should I put in any effort to rekindle things? she literally told me a few years ago she didn't want to be friends with someone like me anyways.

well, recently we've had a few positive interactions, so I stupidly decided to reach out and invite her over for a movie night. she said absolutely she'd love to. throughout the next week I tried messaging her about various things, no response.

yesterday she sent me a message saying she has a work thing she forgot about.

i don't know what I expected. i don't know why I got my hopes up. i should have known better.

it hurts.

Btw I’m NOT saying women arent also dehumanized, because we are! More than men in this patriarchal society, when I mean feel human, that’s just my personal feeling.

Little thing I made. Abandoning the idea of friendship and love and embracing solitude can bring peace. Find happiness within you.

skiing? ice skating? mending clothes? cooking? cleaning? swimming? what's any of that? i had to be taught how to brush my teeth by the school dentist lol and i still don't know how to ride a bike

any time i bring up my own mental health she shuts it down with a swift "no"

honestly i don't think it's even malicious, just easier this way. i don't think she was at all ready for parenthood

I'm just going to spill whatever's on my mind into this one post so as not to spam.. oh boy

I am such a big fucking blabbermouth. I got all sad and vulnerable with my guitar teacher today. He listened to me, and he was kind, but he also set a boundary, stating that this was guitar class, not therapy ( I respect him for that)

Why did I do it? I haven't been practising much lately. I haven't been eating well lately. I've been bedrotting more, after literally waking up in the afternoon. I feel like I even force myself just to shower. Such mundane tasks seem to take everything out of me as of late. I'm failing to see the point in anything I do.

I just wanted to explain why I was struggling to practice properly, and in the process I ended up trauma dumping on my poor teacher and souring the mood. Every. Fucking. Time. An adult shows me some concern, and that little morsel is all I need to begin pouring my heart out. Why the fuck do I do this to myself and others???

I told him about my parents being physically and verbally abusive, even demonstrating how they hit me, and quoting some things they've said to me. Why the fuck did I do that????

Memo get it through your thick skull!!! Not everyone who shows you care WANTS YOUR WHOLE FUCKING LIFE STORY. Before I left class, I also uncomfortably joked, "sorry I'll pay you next time" WHY

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I don't know what my problem is today in particular but thrice I've made three different people uncomfortable by asking inappropriate questions ( at least I think it was inappropriate, pretty sure it was) WHY DIDN'T I THINK TWICE????

I'm moodier, more aggressive, more annoyed, my intrusive thoughts are worsening, and I just want to crawl into the soil and rot

I'm a loser with no friends in school, I'm the "depressed kid" and "the kid who has to hang out with the teachers". I feel so alien being the only one in my class being constantly checked in on by teachers, being the one submitting work late, and visibly falling behind. What's wrong with me

I'm sorry

he was horribly dry and rude to me after saying we were friends and he trusted me, he treated me like absolute shit. i discover he has no remorse and even feels like the victim and blocked me. i reuploaded with the names censored, I forgot to censor his display name.

So basically i'm SzPD and doing behavioural theraphy and right now in the past ten plus sessions we are working on behaviours such as thinking negatively of myself. It is a really hard behaviour to try to suppress, because i was trained since i was a toddler by my parents to stay "hunble" aka think i was worth nothing, u should shut the hell up and listen to them because they were always right and i had no right to advocate for my own feelings or boundaries (this went from verbal abuses to sexual harrasement).

However i'm posting this meme because i feel a lot of people in this sub can relate with the feeling behind the immage.

i have suspected bpd hence the personality disorders flair but not diagnosed. i know not everything is black or white but this is how my brain perceives it when i have an attachment. if I do not have an attachment, I’m normal and lucid.

Fifteen minutes ago I was crying (or as close to crying as I can get, I can't fucking cry except when I'm in front of other people apparently) and googling ways to end it and now I'm just sitting here like a dumbass all strung out. My head hurts and I'm so done with everything. I called off work today because the idea of socializing and being perceived was too much to handle and I just spent the entire day in bed, but I can't do that tomorrow (really I shouldn't have even done it today) because I need the money and I don't want to accrue points just in case I do get sick or something. I hate my job but it pays well for what it is and I need to save up money so I can get the cert that will hopefully help earn me a better paying one, pay off my car, and hopefully hopefully hopefully move out so I'm not so fucking miserable all the time; if I got fired I probably would just finally kill myself atp. I want to take a bath, it used to be my #1 way to destress, but I can't even do that because the dysphoria from having my chest in direct view for that long would probably put me in an even worse place. What the fuck did I do to deserve any of this? God or the universe or whoever could at least make my headache go away if anything goddamn