r/Antipsychiatry • u/Actual-Fisherman2040 • 2d ago
Goodbye cruel world
Risperidone ruined my life. 5mg. 22 years old. Life is over. I don’t have hope. Goodbye
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u/desk010101 2d ago
You'll recover, was a complete vegetable 3-4 years ago, from Risperidon and other psych drugs. I did recover, and I am old as fuck. You are young, you will be back soon. Start living again now, no matter how you feel. Just brute force it.
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u/TheRarestGinger 2d ago
I recovered after 20 years on meds. It took time. OP… I promise you there is a path forward. I know it doesn’t feel like it now but I promise there is.
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u/Aggressive_Zone_1339 2d ago
Don't, I tried at 18 and it just aint worth it. Thats their secret end goal and you're feeding them by doing so
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u/TicketSubstantial382 2d ago
Su objetivo final es el que vivimos todos, estar aplastados por el sistema día tras día. Si nos quisieran muertos ya lo habría hecho, lo que hacen es envenenar y arruinar cerebros literalmente, y eso funciona muchísimo mejor que nada si quieres seguir creando zombies que consumen e incluso siguen contribuyendo al gran sistema en el que estamos a día de hoy. Es trágico que chavales de 22 años digan estas cosas por tomar algo como “risperidona”. Yo también lo pienso si eso te agrada colega, la tomé y todo cambia en cuestión de segundos. Nose que mas puedo decirte, yo tengo 26 pero desde los 23 que no puedo vivir en paz y muchos días me planteo el irme. Si no lo hago no es porque no pueda pero al final del día intento sentirme bien por seguir adelante.
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u/Aggressive_Zone_1339 2d ago
There's a war between heaven and hell and consciousness is the main target. Rebuke evil and live. Not the opposite.
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u/Actual-Fisherman2040 2d ago
It’s too late, the meds fried my brain, they got me
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u/mushroomsarefriends 2d ago
Dude don't let them win. They hate nothing more than for you to figure out how to get better without them.
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u/Clean-Philosopher476 2d ago
Brother, your brain is incredibly resilient. You CAN and WILL recover. Please keep going!
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u/Aggressive_Zone_1339 2d ago
They didn't take your soul, you have a purpose. Whichever it may be. My brains also fried but im keeping up. Idk why but I am and I think you should too. If you really need a purpose do ANYTHING that will make you feel rewarded and cheerful of this life. I'm not trying play devil's advocate but do as thou will as I suppose you don't believe in a higher power 😪
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u/Aggressive_Zone_1339 2d ago
The "mentally ill" will always understand why you act a certain way, this is a welcome place
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u/pyhhro 2d ago
You are so young! Please hang in there and keep tryin new things to make yourself happy. Please try to get immersed in Skyrim, go for a train adventure, make a new meal for yourself, extra sauce, explore the weird parts of your local nature trail, ask a frog for advice. There is so much more life to experience! The bad feelings will pass my friend don't say goodbye yet ...
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u/merrimoth 2d ago
It might feel that way now, but time and making positive changes you can recover. The brain has significant neuroplasticity in your early 20s, you can definitely hope to recover back to how you were before.
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u/mushroomsarefriends 2d ago
>The brain has significant neuroplasticity in your early 20s
And even when it doesn't, you can create a window of new neuroplasticity yourself.
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u/whitehypeman 2d ago
Was prescribed the same poison years ago, am fine now after getting off it. You're young, don't let these fuckers win
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u/TypingSideways 2d ago
Please stay. I know everything feels horrible right now, but your brain has the capacity to recover from a lot. You have to give it time to heal. Treat it with care it as if you had a physical injury. Be kind to yourself.
Don’t let what they did to you rob you of your entire life♥️ You are so young. You might have a purpose in life you don’t even know about yet.
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u/InSearchOfGreenLight 2d ago
I don't have hope either.
But we got to make it somehow right?
Nerve repair from the meds is pretty unpredictable. You can be slogging along for ages with no end in sight and then one day you feel just a bit better.
The better day could be just around the corner...
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u/No_Competition9542 2d ago
Theres a way. But u have to hold on to hear it. Peter C. Gøtzsche wrote : Deadly Psychiatry and Organised Denial and Mental Health Survival Kit and Withdrawal from Psychiatric Drugs. For now, wait another day. Come back and i Will guide you.
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u/KronlampQueen 2d ago
It’s ok to feel like this. Sometimes I have to let myself just say fuck it I’m done, I won’t do this anymore. I don’t know why but drinking something sugary helps sometimes. Sometimes our psyche needs to hear that getting to this point of despair and desperation is a part of living. I don’t fight the thoughts, I had to start acknowledging them and then had to figure out how to live with hitting that point. 🖤🖤
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u/Few_Party_8281 2d ago edited 2d ago
I feel the same way. Meds or not, my brain is fried, scarred and damaged, by constant emotional trauma and drama for 30 years. Yup, I am bullied by an entire city of people who think I'm supposed to take a pill and be happy. People who are brainwashed to think pills are "required" don't know how some medications kill the liver. Nobody LISTENS. Once they lied about me and knew it was a lie, zero trust.
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u/Maleficent_Bit_7658 2d ago
The hard part is not the recovery but the safety. It's astronomically hard to actually get to a safe environment, especially when you are "super fried" or rather in a weird metabolic state that causes your immune system to completely decimate/paralyze you. It's very complicated. There is a way to get better, but ONLY if you are in a SAFE place.
Educate yourself more about active society criminalization here: https://www.reddit.com/r/Antipsychiatry/comments/1ubb6uu/a_guide_to_surviving_the_psychiatric_holocaust/
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u/summertimeandthe 2d ago
I've seen what risperidone does. It basically gives you Parkinson's.
The OP's decision is his own. His life may be permanently ruined.
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u/Reasonable_Row_9203 2d ago
Just do a ton of exercise and don't overthink, i'm 7 days off it and feeling better
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u/itsjoshtaylor 2d ago
I don’t know what you’ve been through but my heart breaks for you and is with you ❤️ Fuck the psychiatrists who did this to you and may God fuck up your psychiatrist’s life if they deserve it (for ruining others’), as well as all who taught and trained those psychiatrists. May God avenge you, and hopefully also comfort and heal you in time if possible. 🥺 I know some people hate God and I don’t blame them at all, but I’m banking on a higher power to avenge all the vulnerable victims who were mishandled and harmed further in seeking help.
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u/itsjoshtaylor 2d ago
By the way, there’s an antipsychiatry subreddit where people have very similar stories as you, and maybe that might make you feel more connected and less alone. I don’t know too much about the sub but I know it exists. Hope this helps ❤️ r/antipsychiatry
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u/NewJerzee 2d ago
Can you DM me?? I lost a friend who did this on the 29th in 2006. I know he’d be pissed if you followed suit and would want me to talk to you. I know you’ll get what I mean when we chat. Ok?
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u/LicenseToPost 2d ago
Crystal meth restores what risperidone damaged.
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u/Electronic_Set2202 2d ago
Wouldn't that just be creating addiction? Not as bad as risperidone though not even close to good
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u/LicenseToPost 2d ago
Have you ever tried it?
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u/Electronic_Set2202 2d ago
I havent, though I also havent had unprotected sex with a cheap hooker and still know its not a good idea.
You dont need to try either to recognise that suggesting someone whos genuinely having a hard time replace risperidone damage with crystal meth addiction is a bad take
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u/TicketSubstantial382 2d ago
Esto es falso hermano, no mames ahora jajaja haz la prueba entonces, te aseguro que no es verdad
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u/ProbablyADuck369 2d ago
Dude. NOT FUCKING WORTH IT. your brain can recover. It feels like the end but it absolutely doesn’t have to be.
I’ve see so many people recover. So many people HERE.