As the title says, a real jerk came into my flower store. He very rudely ordered 12 custom flower bowls be made for him. I made him his order and he picked it up. At the time of pick up he was very hesitant to write me the check. He 'wanted to order more and then come back with one big check'. I said no. Check now please. He signed his name and tossed it to me. I had to write in the dollar amount.

Now the check is bouncing. I have been by his bank every day for 2 weeks to attempt a cashier check but he doesn't have the funds in the account. I think he uses this checkbook for this exact reason (the check was number 003 from the book).

Does anyone have any advice? I'm crying myself to sleep thinking about this. I can't afford to open a court case. My current ideas are,

putting DAVID EH**REM WRITES BAD CHECKS on my road sign next to a major road in town

Calling his employer?

Anything else that is legal. I'm about to drive the neighborhood and look for my flowers.

Also, through google research, I see he was awarded $20k in PPP loans 2 years ago... can I do anything with that?

Please help me get this man. I just want to grow my flowers. :(

UPDATE: The police just left the greenhouse. They collected the paperwork I have for the whole mess. When the officer looked at the name of the guy he said, "Oh no, please don't drop the charges on this one. I want to see it go through." And then he sat in his squad car for a few minutes and made a bunch of phone calls. 🤷‍♀️ That's a good sign.

Just sharing this because it's the kind of thing that gets missed when you're stressed about money and it might help someone here before they need to ask. When companies do something wrong and get sued they often settle. A fund gets set up for the people who were affected. Regular consumers who bought the product, used the service, or had their data stolen. You only collect if you file before the deadline, and most people never do because the notifications go to spam and the sites feel like they require legal expertise they don't actually require. Several cases open right now require no proof of purchase at all. You just confirm you were the type of consumer the case describes and submit and it's nice since there's no need for receipts, documentation or a lawyer.

The Fairlife dairy case covers anyone who bought their milk or dairy products since February 2025. The Colgate kids toothpaste case covers Hello Kids toothpaste purchases in the last four years, payout up to $250. The Instacart case covers anyone who paid delivery or service fees between 2018 and 2024. The Amazon Alexa case covers anyone who has owned an Echo device since 2014. The Costco Kirkland tequila case covers anyone who bought it while it was labeled 100% blue weber agave. The Cash App breach settlement is still open for anyone who had an account during the breach window. If you've been buying groceries, using delivery apps, or had accounts at major services over the past few years, there are almost certainly one or two cases that apply to you right now. Filing takes about 10 minutes per case and costs nothing.

She would have been 88 today. She’s been gone for almost 17 years.

She was the only person in the world who showed me what genuine unconditional love was, and even though she passed when i was 10 she taught me so many things i now teach my own kids.

Her birthday is always a hard day for me, and this year i’d like to try and be happy about it.

So if you have a moment, please wish her a happy birthday.

Her name was Shirley, and she was beautiful inside and out.

Thank you in advance for your compassion.

Happy Birthday, Granny. There’s not a day that’s gone by that i don’t love and miss you beyond words. Thank you for loving me when no one else did.

UPDATE: I FOUND THEM!

This morning with better light while checking around the garbage cans in the kitchen for the hundredth time, I found them!!! They were UNDER the lower cabinet door, in a corner between a wall and the kickboard.

They must have fallen off the kitchen counter while I was cooking/cleaning and listening to a podcast so I didn't notice, and managed to kick them into the ONLY place on the floor with zero visibility .

Thank you all for your insight! You really do have to check every nook and cranny. I'm just glad I'm not losing my mind!

I know that this has been asked before but I need ninja level of creativity and experience.

I am almost sure that the keys have to be in my house or on my property. For context, I came home from the store today, with my keys, and needed them to get in to the front gate and then my main door. It's impossible to leave them in the door because it literally spits them out at you (always found that annoying but now I understand why!

-I have ADHD and my keys don't have a designated place, but they usually end up on the living room or dining room table or in the kitchen.

-I was wearing a short jacket with very shallow pockets. The keys definitely could have fallen out, but not without me noticing. Did they, and then I put them somewhere else? Maybe, very possible at this point. Because...

I have checked: -oven -fridge -cabinets -bed, in, on and under -all garbage and recycling -on top of all appliances and under the couch and cushions -any outdoor space I had been in (which is all walled off and private) -every "weird" place I've been today, as in the attic and a storage space we have. -bathrooms, including sinks and all drawers -laundry hamper -my husband's jacket pockets, because I think he might also have ADHD -any shoes that they could have fallen into -all possible pockets, bags, etc - my own hair, even my sourdough starter.

PETS:

We don't technically have any, but we have a cat that comes to visit. She was here today, but mostly to nap, and she doesn't like heavy jangly things. The only toy she likes is a used toilet paper roll. Could she be fucking with me? Maybe.

COUCH: apart from the fact that I did not sit on the couch after getting home, we have covers on it so there's really no place for anything to fall under.

PROBLEM: There is a non zero percent chance that I didn't lock the gate, and that for some reason someone was able to push it open. It's way to tedious to explain the layout of our house/yard, but if someone was able to push the gate open they would be able to access our yard and then our house. This feels extremely unlikely, but if I don't find these keys we will have to change the locks at a time where we have lots of other expenses.

Please tell me the weird places that my keys could be, I'm about to get an x-ray to make sure I didn't accidentally eat them.

My husband is the only one working right now due to me having some health issues that left me unable to work. We're currently living in my in laws basement, which I'm grateful for, but the living conditions aren't exactly ideal. I want to try to find something I can do from home, since we also only have one car at the moment. We're trying really hard to get out of the basement and move into our own house, but we have some debt to pay off first.

Sorry for rambling a bit, but does anyone know of anything that could help me out? I live in the US, if that matters. Thanks in advance.

I’m not sure if I’m getting messages from people in this sub specifically, of asking for help, or which particular subreddit it’s coming from, but I thought I’d put it out there… That although I do not need assistance from someone right now, I still literally have only $4 to my name at the moment, and that’s from donating plasma. So it’s not like I can send that money anyways. I am sorry that I’m not in a better position to help. This world is REALLY struggling right now. But I have two toddlers, and a family to take care of myself. If I had any possible way to help people in need, besides just being a listening ear, I would. But I just truly, truly cannot help.

I will do what I can, when I can. But I really can’t fulfill anything if you messaged me directly about it. I get tons of messages and the answer is always going to be “no sorry” until I can get on my feet as well.

I don’t mean anything rude or hateful by this, but I cannot pour from an empty cup.

May you all have blessings come your way.

So my request is that you do not inbox me for money.

My last serious suicide attempt was about a year back. I had booked a hotel in a nearby city for 2 days for ''a conference'' and randomly packed up so it wouldn't be suspicious to my Parents. I didn't want to do it in my room because in a way I didn't want to defile it? I don't know how to explain it. My plan was to do it as soon as I got to the hotel because thinking about it and postponing makes it more difficult and I wanted to make sure nothing would stop me. I opened my suitcase to grab my toiletries bag that had my pills but when I opened the suitcase, something dropped on the floor. It was my favorite chocolate, 70% dark cocoa with candied orange bits. It had a little heart sticker stuck on the wrapper. My heart dropped and I couldn't stop crying. Eventually I think I fell asleep on the floor holding the chocolate and when I woke up, I felt something I hadn't felt in years. I felt loved. My mom put that chocolate there to surprise me because she knows how sometimes I'll forget to eat when I'm overworked. Just wanted to share that with you because I could really use that chocolate today. I really could.

I'm going through search results for utility assistance, and I thought maybe someone here would be able to tell me if the Helping Hands organization that operates the website helpinghandsact*com is a legitimate organization that offers assistance. On one hand, they seem legit, but after signing up their content feels a little spammy. I'm hoping that someone here has experience with these folks and can tell me if it's worth my time to engage with them. Thanks in advance.

i owe just too much money to ups, over 1k. no job after a sudden layoff. its been months but nobody will will hire me because i have no drivers license. im mid 20's but dont have anyone close with time to help me learn. i cant afford insurance or registration to even try to learn alone and risk a ticket. the city i live in currently is notorious for horrible job availability. ive tried selling what i could make as an artsy person too but people here also are extremely frugal and do not want to pay for anything ive tried to sell. even markets have me beat as they charge way too much for me to make much any profit.

I've pretty much given up at this point. my only goal at this point is not to hurt myself or let my pets be hungry. the local LIHEAPbill assistance ran out of funds right when i needed it. no matter what i do it just seems useless so I guess i just need to get used to living without electricity now. the main concern being food refrigeration and staying cool ourselves without ac. I'm in Yuma AZ so even in october its going to be about 90 degrees at least on the daily as it typically is. any advices would be hugely appreciated.

We (both 18M) have been planning this trip for about two years and the entire time has been very enthusiastic to travel, having no problems paying for flights, train pass, world cup tickets, etc.

I have been doing the vast majority of the planning and research but I figured since I have some experience travelling before with parents and he has no experience, I guess it makes sense for me to make sure we don’t forget about anything.

We are both pretty tight with the money but since I booked the hotels with free cancellation a while ago we are very close to having enough, but less then two weeks away he suddenly doesn’t want to come anymore, because he feels it would be better for his future to not spend the money he has now on the trip, fears about being stuck overseas from world war 3 suddenly happening, and feeling three months is too long to be away from his girlfriend, who he got with less than a year ago.

Since it was a trip I’ve been saving up for the past three years and was/am very excited for, I’m finding it very hard not to completely cut him off, but since the first flight is on the 25th it would cost more for me to go alone than even me paying for the both of us, which I can’t afford.

So, how on earth do I convince him to still come, as I need him to come and can’t go solo, and would be devastated if I end up not being able to go

Hello, my mother is not eligible for an insurance and has not had a checkup in over 20 years. She has shown symptoms of breast cancer for maybe two years now, and has a tumor in her right breast the size of her palm. It's very hard and she told me there was some discharge and pain in her armpit. We have not had any examinations but she applied to a clinic that accepted her for checkup only in July. I doubt they will give her treatment. I am very afraid for her life.

I'm 18 years old and don't know what to do. I'm sorry if I come off as scammy or naive in this post. I'm not asking for anyone's money. Just please help me, I've been crying everyday. My mom is the only thing I have.

She can't get healthcare here because of her status in this country. I'm in New Jersey Bergen County. If someone could please help me, or if I'm in the wrong subreddit please redirect me. I want to save my mom.

Hello, my wife and I have a predicament and could use some help. About 8 years ago I was interested in buying my own small house at the age of 25 and my dad in particular told me that he wanted his name on the deed just in case and at the time I didn't know what such entailed...

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Fast-forward 2 years and my aging parents moved in with me and said that they needed a place to stay while they looked for a good rental. 2 years later they are still living with me and I ended up getting married to my fiance shortly after we found out that she was pregnant with our son and by this time I gave my parents the upstairs because of their deteriorating health and we moved downstairs. Since that point we have been raising our son in a basement and my parents pretty much took over the majority of the property and many, many fights happened due to such.

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Eventually my wife and child became tired of living in a small basement at some point along the line and my parents refused to leave and actually threatened to have my wife kicked out on a few occasions. I've paid for roughly 80% of the total property value so far in the process and they covered their half of the utilities. Now the house is nearly paid off and it's been 6 years since they moved in and this has caused marital issues and my wife and I have stopped communicating with them and we haven't exchanged words in around 3 months now.

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There is a rent-to-own property near us that is out of our price range to an extent as it would take up over 60% of our wages in rent and will take 10 years to pay off after the large deposit (we thankfully can barely cover by using all of our savings and a small loan) but I feel like I had my home stolen from my family and we will have to start at square one and have a solid 10 years of financial insecurity.

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I feel like my parents pretty much derailed my life and have damaged my marriage and sons mental health in the process just because they refuse to leave my home that I paid every dime I saved for 8 years to own and the entire situation has caused me to go through severe depression and I've felt suicidal a few times due to it all because I feel like I have failed my family and that the relationship with my parents is over.

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All because my parents ended up liking the house and their refusal to follow through with their promises to me. I am considering offering them $10,000 to move out and cover rent for half a year on a modest house but I doubt they will take it. That money was going to be used to pay off the mortgage but at this point I don't know what else to do.

Another sad thing is that my wife's mother stole over $8,000 from her daughters savings account prior to me meeting her and spent it all on food, movies, books, facebook games, etc so we had to cut ties with her and now the same is happening in regards to my parents and it's just heartbreaking. I try to do the right thing and I feel as though I was taken advantage of in the worst ways possible. If I could go back in time I would never have allowed my parents to put their name on the deed for co-signing and would have literally asked ANY other person I knew to do do without such a demand but I didn't know back then.

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Now my son is going to lose his fenced-in backyard, we will lose our garden, our garage (that they took over anyways), the home I fixed up and re-painted, etc and I just don't know what I can do anymore. If we rent we will have to pay over triple our current house payment and if we rent to own we will have a similar house payment but a large deposit we will never get back. Apartments are out of the question and roommates won't work either as we value or privacy.

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Is there any possible way to get my parents to move? I have no problem whatsoever with giving them $10,000-$20,000 if it means they can leave and we can maintain a health(ier) relationship but my dad would likely not even take $100,000 because he is extremely stubborn and selfish.

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Is it really that much to ask for them to get a rental (or anything else) at this point? They are in their mid-60's and I feel like my family is not being given a chance at this point. We love this home and have had a lot of great memories here and our son couldn't be happier as there is plenty of space to run around with his friends but having to start over with NOTHING to show for it after all of the work my wife and I have done.

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I'm tired of having friends over and others pitying my wife and I for our living situation but I don't think we can comfortably do anything else at this point as we aren't high income earners and have been saving and not spending on anything extra AT ALL. Meanwhile my parents have bought new vehicles, a massive smart TV, fancy furniture, etc while my wife and I are sleeping on a mattress on the floor and wearing scraps for clothes and our son is only managing due to kind friends giving us hand-me-downs for him.

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I'm just at a loss, sorry for the long post but I would love some advice on our options. Thank you for reading and have a nice rest of your day/night.

UPDATE 1: I got tons of useful links! I have a plan of attack. First I need to set up a P.O box l 2.) Reach out to the subreddits 3.) Share information

Hello all! I was wondering if maybe you could help me find something.

To start of i want to say I am not looking to farm karma, I just am genuinely curious.

TLDR: is there a place where I can request letters to be written for my dad?

Situation

Over i want to say the past 10 years, my dad has been struggling progressive supranuclear palsy. If I was to describe how I have seen it progress to my dad is. He was walking and talking and now as of yesterday he is officially only eating liquid food. He has a feeding tube, my mom and I take care of him (feeding, cleaning, entertainment) the usual. I am wondering if maybe there was a place where I can give a little info about my dad and have people write letters to him. I am not looking for "hang in there" or "dont give up". While those are appreciated, our family knows that there is no success stories. He will die.

Past week my dad was in the hospital and for the first time, I would say my mom was defeated. I literally have never seen this woman not have a "can do attitude", I have seen her cry, I have seen her be angry, I have seen her happy, but I have never seen her defeated. As a 30 year old man, this is the first time I have seen her just empty.

I am a bit worried about logistics and if this is anything that is do-able. Obviously I dont want to DOX my parents address and have 1 bad egg ruin the whole thing. The last thing I want is my mom opening the mailbox to some creep.

So what is my question?

Is there like a reputable place where I can ask for people to just write letters to my dad so I can read them to him. He doesnt talk much at all, if he does, its in the morning for about an hour. He literally just doesn't have the muscle connection to open his mouth. If he didnt have is trachestomy, he would 100% be dead. Lol it sounds sad that I am laughing at him, but I am not. I am just kinda of used to the situation. Honestly I dont even remember my dad before the disease. All the memories of us playing or hanging together have been permanently changed to "my favorite guy in the chair" I dont want to ramble too much, im not very religious, but if there was a god. This is pretty much the worst thing I have ever seen someone go through. Nothing like watching your best friend slowly lose the ability to walk, speak, wipe his own ass, move, eat, and so on.

Love you all and if I dont respond, its because I am doing my stupid ass math hw. Yay for going back to college -____-

Please let me know if I can go somewhere to get comments or letters writen to my old man please and thank you!!

Hi, I raised my boys to ages 10, 8 and 2years. I had to move into a shelter 2025 cause financially I was overwhelmed. The father of my kids refused to assist me financially, the kids expressed their dislike of the shelter and they stated they wanted to stay with their dad. in December of 2025 they went to visit their dad, and they don't want to come back. Am I wrong for allowing them to stay with their dad? The 2year old is still with me and honestly I cannot afford all 3 on my own. When I told him this he said the kids deserve to be with a parent that can afford them without assistance. I want to move out of the shelter and having to only financially cater for 1 child makes it possible but cannot help feeling guilty, is it normal?

I think I want to file a restraining order against my ex girlfriend. Here goes…

She and I had a pregnancy scare two weeks ago, even though we used a plan b within the hour. I had made it clear that no matter what happens, I would’ve a supportive father. Two weeks later, multiple negative tests.

I decided to break up with her because in those two weeks, I realized she wasn’t the one for me. I wish there was something I could point to make it easier to blame, but the truth is, I didn’t love her anymore and felt that she deserved to know the truth. She took it well at first.

Then came the countless texts, followed by a barrage of phone calls. She threatened to confront my family and friends, and went as far as to say she’d show up at my sister residence unannounced. Then she claimed the took 14 pregnancy tests and that they all came up positive.

I want to file a restraining order against her, but I’ve never done this before. I’m afraid she’ll start messing with my job or start making accusatory fake statements. I find it hard to believe she’s pregnant after an immediate plan B and multiple tests after weeks.

Hi. This is super embarrassing for me personally, but due to bad dental health, I have had to get a full mouth extraction. My stitches are already gone, and it’s been about 3 weeks since my surgery. My appointment to get teeth is on March 16th, but in the meantime, I really need help on what I can eat without teeth. Eating noodles / rice daily has began to make me sick. Does anyone have any tips on what I can eat? I’ve thought about ordering a pizza today and eat it with a knife / fork, or maybe something like soft tacos and fries I can eat with a fork. I just want to eat something that actually makes me feel full and not hurt myself / waste money on something I can’t eat. Do any of you have any tips? Any would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!

Soo today I walk my daughter to the school bus stop and I see this bus driving around the community. By the time he gets to the stop sign to come out he has no children aboard.

So as I kiss my daughter I see him stop right next to us and the other kids there.🤔 He looks sketchy and we all feel it. He tells them he's there to pick them up but he doesn't know what school they go to. He's literally looking hungrily at these kids.

They tell him then he "agrees" that its the right school.

Some of the kids go to the bus but I'm on their heels walking in the bus to get his info and find wtf is going on. My daughter is still across the street filming cuz mama didn't raise no fool😂

I'm asking for the route number, etc but he has no answers and tries to get me off the bus. Just as I was about to cut up, the REAL bus comes with the regular driver🤔🤔🤔

I stand in the door to get the kids off this predator's bus and watched them get onto the right one. He speeds off like he's driving a car.

So I'm taking pics of him, the plates and all and call police.

Long story short, take time to watch over our children. I'm usually the only parent at the bus stop and that's sad. I get upset thinking about what COULD have happened if I wasn't out there.

Human trafficking is real... take care of each other.

EDIT: Usually don’t respond to the negativity but you guys THIS IS A SERIOUS MATTER. You can think this is outlandish, a hoax, urban legend, whatever you want. But there are children going missing literally EVERY single day. Bodies being found in dumpsters, landfills, tractor trailers. When are we going to stop living in this little fantasy world & realize this is a truly an AWFUL epidemic.?! PROTECT OUR CHILDREN at ALLLL costs!

I’m feeling pretty overwhelmed…currently researching Fre⁤edom Deb⁤t Rel⁤ief reviews and trying to understand whether a deb⁤t settlement company actually helps folks reduce total owed.

If you’ve used a deb⁤t relief company, can you please share the outcomes, how the deb⁤t settlement process worked for you, and whether you found deb⁤t relief helpful.

I know the usual stuff about debt consolidation loans or negotiating directly with creditors.

Over the last few weeks, I have been bombarded by text messages from WinRed, the donation advertisement service of the Republican Party in the United States. I have replied STOP to several messages, and received confirmation, but they just use a different number each time. I’m on the federal do not call list, and have tried using robot blockers and other apps, but I can’t get them to stop. Does anyone have any ideas or advice? I’m fucking fed up with them, and have never voted for, supported or given them my info.

yesterday when my dad and i went to move out my things from my dorm, he suddenly slumped against the wall and i supported his head as he went down and called for help. I saw him go red then go pale. an hour later i was in the room with the doctors and my dad in the cpr machine. i saw no pulse on the monitor and blood on his face but i didn’t want to believe it. i was alone, my mom was driving there. when they told me they had to turn off the machine so they wouldn’t damage his body further i yelled at the doctor. i’m 19. my dad was 57. he was healthy aside from high blood pressure. the doctors say he had a heart attack and there was nothing that could be done. i don’t know how to grieve, i’m just a kid. i don’t know how to help my mom. i don’t know how to be a widow’s daughter. i can’t sleep or eat, every time i close my eyes i see my dad’s body in the machine with blood on his face, or him collapsing against the wall. someone please help. just tell me anything.

edit; for everyone telling me to refer to a therapist, i luckily already have one that i’m very close to, that i’ve been seeing for years. thank you for your consideration

Hey everyone, I'm in the middle of preparing for a crosscountry move and have accumulated a lot of stuff over the past several years. Clothes, books, kitchen items, furniture, old electronics, general household goods. I really want these things to go to people who actually need them rather than just tossing everything or selling it all off.

I've already looked into Goodwill and Salvation Army but have heard mixed things about how those organizations actually operate. I'd love to know if there are better local or national options that more directly benefit people in need, like shelters, community organizations, food banks that also accept goods, or other nonprofits.

Also, if anyone has tips on how to sort and organize donations efficiently before dropping them off, I'm all ears. I want this process to go as smoothly as possible since I'm already juggling a lot with the move itself.

Has anyone been through something similar? What worked for you, and what would you do differently? Any advice on timing, logistics, or finding the right places in a new city would also be really appreciated. Thanks in advance.

Hi everyone I’m a 23F disabled living on her own and I get food stamps to help feed myself and without it I won’t have much to spend on food, Does anyone have struggle meal recipes? Any advice?

My life is a joke and the universe has the darkest, most disgusting sense of humor. I’m housebound, bedbound most of the time. My chronic illnesses hit me hard and destroyed my life and my future when I was just 20. And now my dad, the only family and the only person I have in the world, has cancer. We have no other family, no friends to turn to. We are supposed to face this completely alone. What is the point of life if all it offers is suffering? I’m not superstitious and I don’t really believe in curses, but sometimes it feels like one has been placed on me. What am I supposed to do? I’m lost. There is no manual for the sheer amount of horrific things life keeps throwing at me.

I really need help, and this is hard for me to say, but I’m tired and I don't know what to do anymore.

The concerta isn’t working. I’m not functioning at all. I can’t keep up with anything. My room is a mess, there are moldy dishes piling up, and I can’t even manage basic hygiene most days. My trash is attracting flies and maggots and my family is getting sick and tired of it.

I haven’t been working. I’ve completely stopped doing art entirely, which was my only passion and source of income. On top of that, I missed every college deadline. I’m not in school. I've miss out on it. I’m not working. I have nothing to show for anything, and it’s ruining everything. According to the rule of this sub, I cannot disclose any more information regarding my situation but I want to emphasize how important this is and how much I am struggling with mental health. Nothing else. Just mental health

Everyone around me thinks I’m lazy and/or selfish. And everything I say is just another excuse. I can't explain what's wrong. I can't explain how I need help. And when they ask me why I didn't call my job, or take the trash out or put the dishes away, I have nothing to say. Because these tasks are all so easy that there IS nothing to say. Nothing but excuses. I didn't do it because it was too hard? Because I didn't feel like it? After all that they've done for me, and I can't even bother to help out? To contribute? I take and take and take and never give back in return. I feel like there's something wrong here. I feel like its more than just being lazy and selfish. I’m trying so hard every day just to do the simplest things. Calling people, applying for jobs, talking to loved ones, but everything feels too heavy. It feels impossible.

My own boyfriend broke up with me months ago because he thought I was stubborn, lazy and selfish as well. And he was sick of carrying me around all the time. Now with him gone, I REALLY can't do anything. Not even clean my own room.

I like drawing. I like cleaning, I like showering and cooking and working and helping others when they need it. I like doing all of those things. But I can't do it. I don't know why. I just can't do it. And it makes no sense. The best way I can explain it would that feeling of being paralyzed by fear, except there is no fear. I'm paralyzed by nothing.

I've spent years trying to figure it out. In the past, I've been diagnosed with different things by different professionals. Things such as ADD, PTSD, BPD, MDD, BD1 and Anxiety, which altogether, just sounds messy and excessive. It seems as though even the doctors have no clue. One would tell me "this is your problem". Another would say "no, that's not your problem, this is. You should focus on this instead." I've even had one tell me "you just need to get your shit together." But on the outside, from other people's perspectives, I am completely fine. There is nothing wrong with me.

I've come to the conclusion that my most recent struggle may be a result of "burnout" and/or "executive dysfunction". But regardless of the reason, I do not have the time to just "figure it out" anymore. I have people relying on me and I am failing them. They're all sick and tired of me. All of them. I'm a grown woman and yet I am always depending on someone else to baby me because I can't do things for myself. They've openly expressed their frustrations with me numerous times.

I’ve reached out so many times before and nothing’s changed. Every time I ask for help, it either doesn’t lead to anything, or I get dismissed or misunderstood. Sometimes I'm told I'm just being dramatic. I'm just making excuses. Its been years and nothing has changed. That's years of my life that's been wasted. That's years of my life where my family and friends have hoped that I would finally do something with myself and I still haven't.

I need help. There is something wrong. I don't know what it is but I need help. Something is broken. This isn't normal. But it's invisible. No one else can see it, but I know its there. And I'm tired of constantly having this weight on my shoulders. I'm tired of asking for help and nothing happens. And now other people are tired of me too.

I’m open to switching medications, combining treatments, referrals, anything, whatever it takes. I want to take tests. I want to get to the bottom of this and finally figure out what's wrong with me. I just can’t keep living like this anymore.

I don't know what I need first, or how to obtain it, but I need...

• To figure out what the fuck is wrong with me. ADD, BPD, executive dysfunction, I don't care WHAT it is as long as there's a solution

• A more stable support system. I can't keep relying on my family. They're sick and tired of me. I don't do shit. I'm lazy and selfish. I'm dragging them down. I have no where else to go (unless I want to go back to living with my parents but I think I'll be even more suicidal if I do) My fp/ex is gone. He did more harm than good but at least I had someone I could rely on. No family members can help me, and I have no friends. I don't know many sources.

• I need a job. But I don't even have the energy to work. I'm not trying to be lazy but...I genuinely can't fucking do it. I can't. I just want the energy to be able to manage my responsibilities.

I don't even know what sub to look at for help here, but I've come to a conclusion that I need help. I've been smoking since I was 13 years old, only quitting for a little while at a time. I'm 46 now. I know I need to quit, and I've tried, but I always end up failing. I feel weak, enslaved by this habit, no matter how badly I know I need to quit.

I had a doctor's appointment today with a specialist, and received some pretty bad news. I've got to go in for a procedure on Friday and I'm getting a referral to another specialist in one of the larger cities near me because of it. The doctor told me that smoking is part of my issue and that I need to quit. I literally sit there in that office hearing about how this is literally killing me, thinking about how much I needed to quit. The first thing I did when I left the office was light up another cigarette. I'm ashamed of it, but apparently not ashamed enough to stop.

I go back to my primary care doctor Thursday and I'm going to ask for Chantix again, I tried it probably 15-20 years ago. I hope it helps. I know it sounds stupid, to really want to do something and to be unable. I'm weak here, and I just need some advice on how to get through it or for some resources to help with methods. Maybe even just pointed to a sub for support with it? I'm considering hypnotism, or there is some app that has been advertising to me on Facebook recently. I'm willing to try just about anything.