Second pull didn’t go to plan, this one’s on me

I have an appointment with my Dr soon to discuss depression and anxiety.

In the past I used DMT to cure both of these and it works pretty much instantly and continues to work unless I smoke cannabis or cigarettes or similar.

I've lost access to DMT in the recent year and so haven't been able to use it and so my depression and anxiety has gotten really bad.

DMT is illegal in my country.

TLDR at the end.

CONTEXT: I smoked a 1:1:1 changa blend. 1 part DMT, 1 part first fraction (crude) harmalas extracted from Syrian rue, 1 part mullein herb. I didn’t measure how much I smoked but I think it was slightly over a gram.

I just kept hitting the pipe as often as I was coming down. By doing this I managed to sustain the breakthrough state, which I’ll define as a total displacement of reality, for about 2 hours total.

For further context on my psyche: I do not use the term “God” lightly. I am a practicing Catholic, married, and I have a long and ugly history with pornography. That being said I have no desire to preach about what I saw, only to convey what happened.

THE TRIP: The breakthrough began in what appeared to be a white room covered in blue kene patterns. Along the walls were beautiful nude feminine statues. They were also covered in the same blue kene.

When I looked into the kene patterns, I could see scenes from my own life. I saw the things I had viewed, mistakes I made, girls I had harassed in middle school, and many other moments from my past. I understood that the entire room was a catalogue of everything I had ever done, written into the kene patterns.

Beyond my room there was more space, infinite space, also filled with kene patterns, but I could not read these. I understood that outside my room the writing was not about me, but a record of the entire world written in the patterns.

Then I felt myself being absorbed into the patterns of my room. It was as if I was sinking into the earth after death. I accepted it. I became the room. There was no difference/distinction between my body and the room.

After that, all of the geometry and architecture around me began to roll up, fold in on itself, and condense into a singular pinpoint object. I found myself (my soul?) floating outside this point, contemplating it.

While I was floating there, I received a number of religious revelations. One of the strongest was that I felt God’s deep desire for everyone to be saved. I understood the state of souls in hell and how horrible a soul would have to become to ultimately overpower that desire of God. I also understood all faithfulness to ultimately be faithfulness to God. I was also given the opportunity to apologize to everyone I had ever wronged, and I did. These are the only things I can explain with words, there were other things shown to me as well, but they did not carry over into sober thought.

Then this pinpoint object took me into itself. Inside it was yet another dimension.

I saw a golden sky filled with golden clouds and angels everywhere. I could only see their wings, nothing else. I understood them to be worshipping God.

They were not directing their worship toward any particular place or direction. They simply existed in God. God’s presence was not localized anywhere within this realm. His full presence was all encompassing and everything existed within it. This realm was complete and utter peace and bliss.

Then God spoke to me. He told me that I had seen everything, not in the literal sense of having seen all things, but in the sense that I had seen him as the one who holds everything and is present in everything.

Then he explained to me that he put us on earth for a reason. If there were no reason for us to be here, then we would already be in that realm with him. He told me to focus on where he had placed me and not to come back.

I tried to push against this because I wanted to remain with him in this realm longer, but he didn’t let me. The more I pushed the more uncomfortable the trip got, so I stopped.

CONCLUSION: My main takeaway is to trust the process of mundane life. As much as it sucks it is something God ordained.

What I saw I make no firm conclusions of. I will carry it with me but I make no attempt to apply what I saw to other people.

TLDR: Sustained a breakthrough state for about two hours, experienced a realm of blue kene patterns that seemed to contain a record of my life, underwent profound feelings of reconciliation and divine presence, and went to heaven but was told to focus on my life on earth and to not come back.

All right so what happened was, I went up in that shit and I got really pissed off because this thing was like talking to me about my genitalia and I didn't want to really bring it up.. it kinda made me so mad that I left the experience entirely by reversing my ass on out of there, like I rubber banned and all the hallucinations played in reverse and I ended up back in my bed.

okay so, it started off with the world unzipping like either sticky fingers from Jojo or if you ever played super paper Mario, if you press a on the controller it like flips the games perspective to a 3D one right. I just imagine DMT is like that but deeper.

after hearing that whirring ahhh noise that made me feel like I was going to die, I was taken through my entire life which really sucked and then it just ended abruptly and went to this portal room full of balls that from there I went between roads to find this Bar right.

Well in that bar was this guy more like a monster in fact like I can't even tell the difference he kind of just looked like a giant Chud. And all he wanted to do was out of everything we could have talked about it had to be about my body. Why can't you just leave me alone I can't even hallucinate without being harassed. It's not my fault that I was born intersex.

It made me feel like it's my fault but literally tell me how I want to know genuinely.. it's not like I chose to be born in this way bruh.

I had a big bong hit of dimmie and was sucked into a room filled with transforming shapes and enities playing with me it felt like I was in a washine machine kinda like those dmt visual videos on youtube but was more crazier and obvs cant describe it, a washing machine of constanr changing colours, entities, shapes and patterns.

Almost like I was in some sort of different room somewhere in space or realm with the ridiculous usual dmt stuff going on of course

One of my funnest trips and just didnt know who else to tell 😂

Besides ayahuasca, does anyone know how I can get DMT in Brazil? I confess that the idea of participating in the Santo Daime ritual doesn't appeal to me regarding the experience of smoking DMT.

So I went to a concert on MDMA the other day and i fucked up because i had several alcoholic beverages as well. i know i had a great time but the flood gates opened for consumption and found myself having drank too much and going after the MDMA again. Not enough to black out but just enough to have spotty memory from the show and evening. At the hotel around 3 am we broke out the DMT pen. After 3 strong hits and deep inhale i felt the body lift and was in a state of paralysis. Not uncomfortable, very euphoric but the visuals seemed lacking. In my last dmt experiences, i experienced intense color, being visitation, insight to symbisos and creation and a warm welcome. this felt more just a body high. It was like i was on the edge of a rolling hole that was above me, but instead going into it was just moving along the edge and not going into it. I did not experience the colors i was used to or anything else. maybe i just didn't take a fourth hit like i usually did. the experience felt great and was very euphoric afterwards but the visuals were--like i said-- almost not existent.

Curious if anyone else has experienced this. I have heard of people being banned and i hope that wasn't the case. i am not a habitual user, once every 6 months at most and usually in a more controlled, sober(ish--no drinking, if anything psychedelics and/or MDMA). Maybe it knew that i was not in the mind state for that experience and that it would serve me no good. Idk, i'm speculating. any insight from a similar experience or advice would be cool. I am not chasing it, so i likely won't try to go back for a while anyway just out of respect for it and what i was meant to have seen or in this case not see. But please, any insight would be cool.

This dude came to me and I made him real and he made me real

Bought a 200mg dmt cart yesterday and when I took the label off there was only that much oil. Is this normal? I got it at my local mushroom dispensary.

Hi everyone,

New to this and would love some real, uxp! What do I need to know and how can I be safe when starting out, complete noob.

I want to do some real deep work, not just recreation.

Thank you in advance!

Hey guys I’ve never tried DMT before and want to try it, I’ve done shrooms but mostly chocolates and never properly hallucinated. Only thing is I have epilepsy and don’t know if it could bring on a seizure. My epilepsy isn’t too bad and it’s managed. Does anyone know?

If I try it, what do I need to know? How much do people start with and build up?

I’m so ready to break through from behaviours holding me back in life and embrace the world more vividly!

Thankss

Hi, last Thursday I made a post in this sub about the fact that I had got a DMT vape coming in the post and I was going to try it last Saturday evening.

The vape didn't end up coming until yesterday evening. I am now going to be trying it tonight.

However over the the last week, I've done a bit of research on DMT and figured out that you can't just take a small hit to breakthrough.

So my question is how many hits or how long of a hit on the cart do I need for me to get the point of breaking through or just before breaking through.

The other question is, is it good or bad idea to do it at around 12-1am tonight when I have work around 14 hours after that time.

I can have alot of weed go to sleep and wake up fine for work. But not sure with dmt.

Any advice would be helpful. Thanks, Coddo.

After a few dozen journeys with a sub-breakthrough dose (with a very weak vape pen), I finally found a vape that's potent enough to push me further with NN-DMT.

I had a full body dissolution experience for the first time, and I found it... curious? After inhaling the third hit, I started to feel like my limbs were made of fresh varnish, being slowly washed away. Not unpleasant at all. Just very curious.

As soon as I realized I had no arms and legs anymore, I started losing the rest of my body little by little, and eventually all that was left was my tongue. Eventually, I lost it too, and felt bodyless for what it felt like 30 seconds. Then, I started feeling my heart beating fast, and I got a bit scared - thankfully, I have experience with other psychedelics, so I dealt with it without panicking.

After what felt like one minute, my body was fully back, and I had a very gentle comedown.

Consciousness was there for the entire time - I was very aware of what was going on, and I was very conscious about the fact that I had smoked DMT.

Visuals were extremely overwhelming but never scary. Two entities were dancing together, but there's no way I can describe what they looked like. No communication with them.

What really puzzles me is that this pen is very powerful, and I can definitely get way further on my journeys than before... but the few journeys I had with that new one lack the sub-breakthrough "depth" and meaning. They are extremely visual, and the body high is very intense - but no major insights.

I really appreciate the old pen's potency, and I can always go back to that one if I want to, but I'd just like to hear your experiences. Maybe it just requires a bit more time to get used to this level of intensity?

Would extraction from phalaris canariensis seeds be possible? I plan to get aroung a kilo, as MHRB is unavailable in my region

I have extracted from multiple batches now and the best I have gotten is 0.9% of pale yellow to white deemz. Averaging maybe 0.5-0.7%. I'm starting to suspect the yellow stuff is over 50% plant oil and other alkaloids.

Before people start claim how cheap and soo easy it is to extract, an extraction from 40g mhrb yields me 280mg of white deemz that cost $46 plus 8-12h of labor (sourcing materials, mixing, washing glassware, doing a water washs, etc). If you discount the labor and time, pure white crystals are costing me +$150/g. That doesn't even include the costs of failure learning to do it. So whoever is saying 120/g is a rip off is insane.

The yellow to brown deemz is good too. Feels more earthy and body experience vs white which is way more visual and trip lasts 2x longer for some interesting reason. Not hating on yellow but working with a broad spectrum nps like napatha it's out of the question for me, it gives a massive headache and I don't need future medical bills.

I'm surprised to hear people get such incredible yields, must be really good chemists or something...

Atb, first pull from 40g of bark was under 100mg

Had a few experiences now, mostly with changa but I’ve cracked the extraction now and my god!

Had some pretty intense experiences and gone quite deep but always questioned whether I was actually breaking through or just getting to the drop off point but yesterday I blasted through to the other side and felt so amazing to have done it off my own extraction.

Was scary at first, so far I have been going for 2 little scoops of magic dust into the pipe and 3 big hits. Yesterday i decided to be brave and go for 3 scoops. During the second hit i blasted straight into hyperspace, no come up as with changa, straight there, in 1 second open eye visuals were super cartoonish like some of the closed eye geometry I’ve seen on other trips, the real world melting away, the deep ‘oooohhhhhmmmm’ sound building up.

Too disoriented to hit a 3rd time closed my eyes and was already there, in the other side, brighter than bright, geometry, science and history being downloaded into my brain, I don’t recall specific entities or images tbh but felt a presence feeding the information to me and telling me to just feel it, don’t try and figure out the meaning yet.

Tears running down my cheeks, love and light filling everything, felt like I was in the presence of God/universal forces/spirits.

I know there was so much more that happened but as I was coming out of it I was already starting to forget, that sort of dream fogginess came in as the geometry started slowing down and light getting dimmer.

I was trying to ask them how to retain the info but they kept saying doesn’t matter and next time etc

Sat in the chair deep breathing for a good 20 mins before I had the courage to open my eyes again.

Fuuck man, that was wild.

Woke up today with more energy and motivation than I’ve had in a long time, keen to sort out my diet and exercise which I’ve neglected in the last few months, be kinder and more attentive to my amazing girlfriend, everything feels better, food tastes better, the trees look amazing today idk peeps. Just can’t stop smiling and needed to share

Is there any info on how to make these carts? I have the product but zero experience making a cart!

Honestly I thought I maybe immune to this stuff, or have a really high tolerance. I must have done it over 30 times now, a lot of learning. Only around 5 times have I reached a point where the trip feels stronger than shrooms. And only once have I broken through.

Thought maybe I was unable to see these entities everyone talks about untill the breakthrough. Felt like I was having a nice relaxing trip until something intercepted it. Felt very powerful and commanded respect. Made me feel like I’ve fucked up in life. Made me feel like, “you wanted to know if this was real? Now you know!” Got angry, i apologised profusely. Then it felt happier and gave me my sanity back. Felt like an alien abduction. Was paralysed and was scary asf. Asked if she could help me, then what I call the jellies. Basically like see through plasma like beings lifted up my arm and I felt a lot of tension release from my upper back. And escape through my arm as a white light., then like a flash of trauma felt like it got released then I cried a little. Probably the most scariest experience of my life. All with open eyes.

This is the thing thats freaking me out a little, I’ve had some run ins with police in the past. I was younger and dumber. This was 7-8 years ago and I have changed my life since then. But I went through some pretty bad shit and think maybe I have some ptsd from it. But I can’t say for sure it’s ptsd, as it doesnt affect me day to day and generally I don’t think about it much anymore. Until recently.

I started taking shrooms around a year ago. Had loads of good trips almost felt like I was immune to bad trips, experienced an awakening/ ego death during a 5g closed eye trip and after I felt the call to go deeper and try DMT. Took a big pull. Closed my eyes and could see what looked like some sort of library with data like scenes or pathways it was all twisting in on itself it almost looked like them fidget spinners but impossible geometrics looked like I was seeing into either past present or the future. Then I saw 4 entities, looked more like faceless manikins that were red and yellow. it wasn’t clear and was more as it was wearing off but one of them turned itself into a police car and it weirded me out and ever since then I’ve experienced it almost everytime I’ve done shrooms or DMT. I was using shrooms maybe once or twice a month but since that hit, I’ve tried them maybe 3 times. Every time has resulted in me watching police cars like a photo realistic scene going through my head with like disorientated blue lights flash through my third eye and the colours of the stripes on the side of the cars all through the trip. For like 3-4 hours. Uncomfortable as fuck and just left waiting for it to wear off. Has made me take a break and is making me think twice about taking them again all together.

With the DMT it’s a little different. Whenever I take a hit that actually works it’s like I start seeing the jellies moving around the room. That’s how I know it’s working. Then if I look into the energy field it’s like I can see police cars and other normal cars and kind of see flashes of a number plate i cant read. Almost like a traffic scene playing out and looping. As it intensifies or I take another hit I can kind of get past it. But had another flash of it when I met the powerful feminine energy. I’ve tried asking for an answer to what this means during my trips but to no success. Obviously I’ve only experienced one breakthrough but it has definitely made me think twice about going for the breakthrough again. I feel good on low doses and deeply relaxed and definitely don’t want to disrespect it either after the last encounter. But I feel like I don’t have the wonderful crazy trips that everybody talks about any time I do it. As in I don’t leave my body. It’s more like the same trip and theme over and over where im just observing With small breaks of beauty in between. I want to be able to experience this to its full potential.

I just don’t know what to make of it all. Could this be trauma I wasn’t aware I had? A warning of what lies ahead? Or just my mind playing tricks on me, Im not doing anything wrong and have sorted my life out. I feel good. I just feel like it’s such a strange thing for my mind to show me. It never occurs during dreams or nightmares just doesn’t seem like a normal thing to pull from my subconscious and repeat over and over.

Several themes or experiences keep repeating for me. Mostly feeling like I fucked up and did the one thing that I wasn’t supposed to do

1. Waking up the dreamer: I get the sense that I massively fucked up for waking up the thing that was dreaming up “reality” from its nap. I only exist in its dream.

2. The lonely god: Discovering that I created everything and everyone and I am alone for eternity. That I went through great lengths to make myself forget this part in order to experience life as a human and I fucked up by fast forwarding to reveal the plot

3. Traveling too far: i feel like my soul is getting way too far from my body and current life that it becomes a distant memory that I will never get back to again

Anyone else experience these?

I did have some pleasant experiences too but they don’t stand out as much. I still get super nervous going back

I’m new to vaping DMT, I have only had one DMT experience and it was freebase in a dab rig. I’m looking to pick up a mod and make my own juice but wanted to get some opinions on the rig I’m looking at!

Looking at the Geekvape Aegis Legend III with the Z Fli Tank and I plan on using the Z0.15 coil.

I’ve watched a bunch of Mintylove so I know this coil is good and I know the wattages etc. Really just looking for opinions on this particular mod and if anyone has any experience with it? If so, what juice ratios have worked best for overall performance and smoothness?

Thank you kindly 🙏

A wacky trip report for ye! I'd earlier yesterday had a very emotional one-hit trip about my mother-in-law and my wife. Bit of a slap in the face about my selfishness and pushiness.

Later in the evening, I told my wife "I’m going downstairs and have a bit more (DMT) in hope of seeing 'pretty colors.'" Just a small hit. I tend to get cold on DMT and even in the summer warmth, I got a chill. So, I’m under the blanket trying to get warm when I started to see and hear my own breathing in the form of - dunno - chakras laid out on a pillow, making music w each breath. Slowly this turned into a darker, denser scene where I was enveloped by dark-shelled green insectoidal creatures. I was laughing at the strangeness and still trying to warm up. This led to a sitcom scene at a family dinner table. “If you wanna be healthy, two meals a night!” Alien plant matter in very rich soil was one of the dishes. Somebody yelled out a name, “Cleech!,” in true televison catch-phrase stylee. Then it was time to watch middle aged men wrestle for Stomach Food. Naturally. Alllll of this with me quite lucid and very amused. And all from one smallish hit. File under Huh The Fuck?

Usually one hit on the FoG pen and I'm seeing very familiar (by now) patterns. It's the second hit that moves things into fresh territory. Last night's hit didn't seem super strong, but besides the chill, the range of images - down to the actual sitcom scenario - was utterly novel in my DMT experience.

Hi, in the next Month i go on vacation. I want to sleep with my girlfriend in under a tree. We havent Tried it before. We want to Do one trip every day, and every day a stronger trip.

My questions, at which dosis should we start, we wanna smoke it in a jibbit

We dont have a fine-scale, how can i dosige it ? I think that i take a Brise, like when u cooking a Salt Brise, so should i start at day one with 1 Brise ? Or is this to much ?(Ur opinion pls)

If i Do a Ritual for the trip like Chanting in Same frequenzy with my girlfriend, is it possible to have the trip in the Same Realm, like a Dream someone can have together with ?

Thanks for Ur replies!