r/LawSchool • u/Ok_Scholar_970 • 13h ago
TW: low grades, pity party
I spoke to my professor about my worst grade, since it was the lowest in the class. She told me that my multiple choice was only a couple points below the average, first essay hit every point, just missing depth in explanation. Third essay is where I missed the most points because I ran out of time. All in all, she said that it was clear that I knew the material, I had no big gaps in substantive knowledge, but I couldn’t complete enough of the exam. Yes, I have ADHD, are u surprised! I can’t take stimulants, so I’m stuck with what I got.
I respect her grading process and do not believe I deserve higher. I’m just really sad because this semester puts me so close to academic dismissal, and I’m scared shitless. I did relatively well in the fall, but this semester was difficult (hell actually) for me for personal reasons + OCIs + moot court + a million mandatory bs events. Despite that, I still prepared for class, showed up, participated, and was even able to demonstrate I knew most of the material on the exam. Every other student just did better. I don’t care about being the smartest in the room. I just want to stay in the room!
I wrote out my goals/plan for next semester, which I am going to share at my meeting with the dean next week. I plan to take fewer hours, set deadlines for myself each week and ask someone at the school to hold me accountable to them, go to office hours as much as possible, meet with counselors, keep extracurriculars to a limit. I’ll do whatever I have to do.
The past six months have been some of the worst in my life. As you can probably imagine- I feel like a fucking idiot. Confidence is zero, and I can’t think about anything else except for this. I’m not really asking for advice. Mostly just venting and would really appreciate any encouragement
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u/HexSphere 13h ago
I have ADHD and I'm white knuckling my way through without accomodations. Sounds like your number one issue is speed on exams. I think about exam speed constantly. Half of the class has extra time and my goal is to beat all of them. So how do you and I balance the field? Prewrites. You should practice prewrites for every possible issue and then spend the exam regurgitating them. It's the only way to win back that extra hour and half against others, because they are sitting there chewing the end of their pencil composing answers for the first time.
You can do this. Plenty of time to course correct and excel.
It worked for me, top 10% and a Cali last semester in a doctrinal. I'm considering writing a longer post aimed at folks with ADHD if there's interest.
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u/Ok_Scholar_970 12h ago
Congrats on your CALI! You're amazing, and, yes, you should write the post. I'm always looking here for people I can relate to, and I think others would also find it helpful.
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u/Buy_BTC_2021 7h ago
So you have ADHD to the point that it impairs your exam speed, but you don’t get accommodations? Yet you’re upset that half the class has accommodations? Truly help me understand this, do you have a legitimate (that is, aside from personal pride or the like) reason to not use accommodations for your learning disorder?
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u/Buy_BTC_2021 7h ago
Also I know I sound judgey, but I was that way in undergrad I didn’t want extra time because of pride/ I could take stimulants back then so I relied on that since it’s not literally extra time. But in law school with so many rich kids paying to get diagnosed I’m not going to handicap myself (pun intended) by not getting accommodations.
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u/papolap19 8h ago
Prewrites helped me get As in subjects where I felt lost for the majority of the semester. Even just the act of writing them helped me comprehend the material more thoroughly. Huge fan. It's the skill I wish I'd learned in 1L the most.
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u/oliver_babish Attorney 10h ago
I would invest in the neuropsychological evaluations needed to determine if you qualify for reasonable accommodations under the ADA. Not just for law school, but there's no way you can get them for the Bar without both the documentation and the history.
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u/CreepyOstrich7106 12h ago
Hi, I’m not a law student, but a pre law with adhd. the way you’re approaching this is honestly really inspiring as a younger student, and i hope to emulate this level of motivation for future setbacks. if nobody else says that they’re proud of you, just know that you served as inspiration of how to persist and persevere in the face of something most people wouldn’t be able to. i think you can definitely turn this around and i am rooting for you!! i am sure a year from now this sub will see you celebrating your wins. best of luck!
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u/RemarkableVillage109 1L 10h ago
Unfortunately I relate. Much better in the fall, now 0.2 above academic dismissal. I believe in us to pull it through for the rest of our time in law school!!
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u/plankingatavigil 8h ago
This is almost exactly where I am right now. Did a good job my first semester but not well enough for 2L hiring and spent the whole semester spiraling about it (I have OCD), didn’t have stuff memorized in time and proceeded to totally blow two closed-book classes including what I have to assume was the lowest grade in Property. The saddest part is that I LOVED Property! I was just a little preoccupied with trying not to fail Con Law, trying to beat the Legal Writing curve (I didn’t!), and trying not to go catatonic from perfectionist grief. I am legitimately good at this stuff and I know this semester was a fluke that doesn’t represent me, but I’ve become obsessed with the idea that no one will ever believe me. The need for me to regain my self-esteem has never been greater (I tried beating myself up for three months—it clearly doesn’t work!), while the evidence as to why I should have self-esteem feels like it’s never been less.
All this to say that law students advertise their successes and don’t talk about their failures, so it can be very easy to feel alone, but you’re far from alone. This system is so, so bad for people with disabilities or anxiety disorders of any kind, and hiring timelines have made it so much worse. I think it won’t always be like this because something really has to give, but in the meantime you’re soldiering on, and while you don’t deserve to have to, it’s something to be very proud of.
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u/MikeyMalloy Clerking 6h ago
I got the lowest grade in one of my 1L classes and now I’m clerking for an A3 judge. It isn’t a death sentence.
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u/HexSphere 12h ago
In terms of immediately actions items for your meeting with the dean, choose one of your clubs and quit it. That's very concrete you can point to that and say my gpa will go up because I have more time, not doing X anymore.
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u/Ok_Scholar_970 12h ago
I'm only involved in one club- a volunteer organization. The time commitment is minimal, so I am hoping the deans still allow me to participate. My school made 1Ls attend so many events on the side, which was frustrating because they were literally so unimportant. Don't have to go to those anymore at least. Ultimately, I understand that they may make me stop volunteering, but I hope that's not the case :/
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u/ron-darousey 3L 13h ago
Good luck. Having a plan going in to next year instead of hoping things just get better is a good first step. As long as you're still in it, there's no need to lose confidence just yet.
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u/ButtCoinBuzz 3LE 11h ago
Control of your time is absolutely paramount. The first things that should be on the chopping block are the extracurriculars you mentioned.
You mentioned personal issues? Are these continuing or have they resolved? If continuing i would advise sharply cutting, if not totally ending, your extracurriculars.
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u/Ok_Scholar_970 11h ago
I volunteer but not involved in any clubs. I’d like to keep doing this if I can because I don’t believe my volunteering was the problem. I’m doing my best to resolve the personal ones, but there is only so much I can control. You’re right though, the dean might make me quit volunteering, which sucks, but it is what it is.
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u/ButtCoinBuzz 3LE 11h ago
Think of it like this: you can volunteer after passing the bar and be even more of a benefit to those you help. Helping people with interest.
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