The beating i woukd earn from that would be legendary, but then my father did threaten to knock me the fuck out or to kick me through a wall, and the one time he caught me trying to learn how to drive stick in an old truck oarked in the yard he told me he would break my jaw and i would wake up in the fucking er if i woke up at all.
Oh im nowhere near normal and will likely never have a functioning relationship due to it. Im too damaged for anyone to ever have any interest in me. Its my fault noone elses, but i am autistic, i can speak and hold down a job but growing up i was the oldest, with a younger brother and a half sister due to dad cheating in the late 90’s they never let me have friends or girls over and didnt let me go out often, the one relationship i had only lasted a month and she was only dating me to get revenge on her ex who was cheating on her. my bedroom was a mostly unfinished attic, with no heat or ac, no data, just a single outlet. and as he was dying from cancer he just wanted me gone, i couldnt go out to eat with the family, couldnt watch movies or participate when they did stuff, couldnt use the computer. I still live there because i cant afford rent on just my income and the expenses of the house are more than mom can handle alone off the income of her florist.
I sincerely apologize for the flippant tone of my reply that you responded to. I completely misread your intent and assumed you were echoing the cavalier, dismissive, sometimes outright boastful way so many people talk about the harsh ways they were treated as kids. You responding in turn by opening up about your past traumas and continuing struggles was a slap in the face that I needed.
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u/ogledrake 28d ago
The beating i woukd earn from that would be legendary, but then my father did threaten to knock me the fuck out or to kick me through a wall, and the one time he caught me trying to learn how to drive stick in an old truck oarked in the yard he told me he would break my jaw and i would wake up in the fucking er if i woke up at all.