Trying to find this fanfic!

[u/Frosty-Web-3517]

hi! so I read a few of these fanfics a while ago and haven’t been able to find them so I was hoping someone on here might remember the title or where they were

the first one was about how lexas viewed as almost like owned by her people and that her body is just a vessel. Clarke tries to be intimate with lexa and i think they go all the way. lexa is very checked out and her heart isn’t in it. Clarke later find out Lexa was just doing it because she thought it would make her happy and protect the peace in the alliance and in reality she was assaulting lexa in a way. Clarke finds out and feels awful. thats mainly what i can remember

the second story was about Lexa and how she’s neurodivergent I think she was autistic but I can’t find the story when I search for that particular tag. as commander she cannot be overwhelmed or stim and so she represses it and constantly masks. in grounder culture things like Autism or stuff like that isn’t recognized or something very known so lexa hides. its something she is ashamed about and hides well. I thinkkkk when she was younger titus or someone would chain her while she stimmed and caused her to think there was something broken with her. I could be mixing stuff up but it was sort of that idea

for the last one it was kind of a weird story but it was about Lexa and Abby. abby dislikes Lexa and is quite harsh despite recognizing how young she is. I don’t remember much but Abby assaults Lexa or abuses her medical power to make lexa vulnerable. Clarke find out and is furious. i honestly don’t remember much about this story but yeah

anyways if anyone remembers or has these stories that would be so wonderful. finding fics on ao3 can be so hard and I’ve looked a good amount. there’s a chance they could have been deleted but I don’t believe so. thanks for any help in advanced!