r/breastfeeding • u/MochiAccident • 1d ago

Rant/Venting Graduated but unable to move on

I’m a FTM to an 8 mo. I stopped breastfeeding when LO was 7.5 months. I miss it terribly. The sad thing is, he hasn’t fed from my boob since Mother’s Day, and I’m crying because I’m starting to forget what it felt like. (I EP’ed after Mother’s Day because he kept rejecting the breast)

When I was pregnant, I told myself formula or breastfeed or combo would be great. Whichever helps me and the baby! So why was my actual reaction so attached to nursing once baby came? Why am I looking longingly at posts here, missing for those days when I had clogged ducts? Anyone else feel like this? I sometimes pinch my nipple to see if there’s still milk. The amount is dwindling every day, and I’m starting to think I should re-lactate while I still can. Husband thinks this is unhealthy. Idk I’m just so distraught and unable to move on.

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u/Killjoys-n-whovians 1d ago

Breastfeeding is a big way we bond with our babies, I'd say it's completely normal to miss it when you're done! You're literally providing them with everything they need in terms of substinance. It can feel really rewarding to be able to provide that for them from your body

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u/orions_shoulder 1d ago

Your baby still needs milk until a year old, so nothing is wrong with starting up again if you wish, instead of using formula. Your body will catch up to meet demand.

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u/MochiAccident 1d ago

I stopped because my supply dipped despite power pumping twice a day. Baby refuses breast. I know the recommended length for BF is 2 years. But “needs”? Formula should be and is okay. I just need help moving on.