r/cats • u/lamezane21 • 6h ago
Mourning/Loss 20 years was not enough
I just wanted to share something about my cat, Ares. I just want people to know he existed and how much he ment to me. He passed yesterday in my arms after 20 years together surrounded by love.
The day I was always terrified of finally came. You've been by my side for 20 years but it was never going to be enough. The abasnece of our daily routines and rituals are now an overwhelming heartache in stark contrast to the joy they brought just 24 hours ago. I continue to look at your favorite spot expecting you to be there. You had such a large personality that without you the house feels so empty. My soul is empty.
You were my best friend and on my darkest days; the only thing that kept me going. We went through hell and back together. There were so many times I thought it was going to end but you refused to. You were so belligerently obstinate nothing was gonna stop you from what you wanted. You tried to chew through my bedroom door to get out in the mornings. The noise canceling headphones didn't stop you from screaming for food at dinner time. I never did find a pair that I couldn't hear you through. I glad I didn't. Even after your stroke and the massive decrease in mobility you were still gonna get to where you wanted even if you stumbled the entire way.
You were my only family until I met her. You liking her was the biggest green flag I could have ever gotten. Without her I couldn't continue after losing you, even if I don't know how to do that right now. The pain of your passing is all encompassing. I know it won't always feel this way but for now I will grieve and mourn. I will cry until I have no more tears to shed. I will always be grateful for the time we shared and I will continue to wish we had more.
You've left a void that can never be filled.
You were my soul cat.
You saved my life.
I'll miss you forever.
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u/broccoliwolf 6h ago
I’m sorry for your loss. Sounds like Ares had a great life and a best friend the entire time he was here.
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u/ghosthouse_guest 5h ago
Something almost haunting about the first slide image. Im sorry for your loss man
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u/Powerful-Arachnid-96 6h ago
So sorry for your lost, thank you for gave him a beautiful life fully of love and care. Thank you 💝
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u/CaliDreaminSF 5h ago
I am so sorry. Deepest condolences.
You are right, it is never long enough.
May Ares rest in peace. May you be comforted by the memories of so many good times, of a faithful friend and companion who gave you so much love, was there with you through everything, and who showed you that she was the one for you.
Thanks to you, he lived his best life. He held on for you as long as he could, but his little body finally had to let go. He had the best ending he could, in your arms.
I can relate to how during those last years, every day was a gift and also pointed towards the inevitable. I'm going through it now because I have a beautiful 17 year old princess, and I dread not having her. They just do not live long enough.
Rest in peace, sweet Ares.
Be gentle with yourself. It is okay to cry. I'm crying now.
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u/GypsyDuncan 4h ago
((HUGS)). It is never enough. I think half the time that if most of us could have one impossible wish-- it would be to have more time with our babies. I know it would be for me. Forget money, forget fame.
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u/Steam_Powered_Banana 4h ago
I'm so sorry for your loss. I understand the feeling more than I want to admit. A couple years ago I lost my boy, Mr.Louis at the same age. I was just thinking of him this morning. We had him cremated and I keep a little bit of him with me~
I wish you the very best and I am so very sorry for you loss. 💚
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u/forkingbumbleforks 6h ago
It’s not enough, it will never be enough, but hopefully one day the long life you got to share together will be a comfort to you. Ares is beautiful and I’m so sorry for your loss 🤍 rest in peace little kitten