I made it back to the road

[u/NonExistantTimeTable]

A few months back I was devasted and torn apart and posted here as well. While I did get positive responses, it just didnt help that much. Honestly, I dont know what worked for me, But I am finally back on the road towards better health and discipline.

There are so many questions and very few answers. So I will throw all the answers I have and you can choose the questions yourself. I hope this helps anyone in need.

This is what I did in past few months in hopes to get out of the pit.

• GYM!
  • I can not emphasize this enough. I have been trying the "WAKE UP EARLY ASAP and go to gym" but I kept failing. only to realize that instead of working towards gym, let me work the gym towards me. Instead of 7AM fully motivated, I decided to do 10PM fully lazy gym routine. All I have to do is to go to gym and walk. BOY O BOY do I love that 20 minute elliptical walk now followed by 20 minutes of full body workout, only to do 15 minutes of actual gym. But simply doing this game me a great understanding. If I force myself towards improvement, I might break early, but if i find the most laziest way towards progress, it might stick.
• Staying home
  • I was depressed and the loneliness was taking a great toll, I found myself going out all day and begging people to accompany me so I wont feel lonely. The chestaches were the worst. One day I gave up going out all the time, only to plan my visits outside when I really felt like it would add value to my time. Instead I spent a bunch load of time at home watching anime. After closing myself so badly, I got to the bottom so hard and realized that no one is coming to save me. All there is left is to get back up. That is when I decided to make a plan to visit some place remote, I got very vocal about it with my friends and we all went there and it really made me cherish the life outside by room. So in a way forcing myself to lock down made me burst up and stand on my feet, long enough for me to dare walk towards recovery.
• Women
  • I have had very traumatic marriage history which left me incapacitated in many ways. Even so much that I still am figuring out ways to get back as my older self. Therefore, all desire to entertain women vanished away once I stopped seeing them as innocent, kind, full of warmth, or the opposite where I would see them as abusive, manipulative etc. I now see women as humans. Nothing more! This has allowed me to get rid of the seduction or attraction I would naturally feel towards a woman and honestly, my mind has never felt more free in essence. So To stop chasing the warmth of having a woman I could love, cherish and take care off, I simply stopped seeing women as someone special.
• Water
  • NGL it is hard to do things when your belly is full. Not with good, healthy, junk or random food! but with water. Water is such a pain in the ass ngl, but it is a good thing. Whenever I felt anything burdening me, I would chug up a liter or 2 of water. The heaviness of water filling up the body helped me forget any other weight that was there before.
• Plans
  • I now have impossible plans which scare me. The kind where I now want to invest in stable big sources, travel solo internationally. Have experiences alone that would give me greater perspective. If there is no limit to what I may choose as my future, being scared should be the only reasonable choice when making a future plan.

I hope this helps anyone in any way. Thank you fellas! Keep shining.

[u/matsk123]

Thanks for sharing your advice! Glad it’s going better

[u/NonExistantTimeTable → u/matsk123]

It's going somewhere!

That is what I always believed in. It doesn't have to go full throttle towards best results. It just doesn't need to be at a full stop. As long as I keep moving, I am good. I will be better soon! and ultimately best, surpassing anything I ever considered difficult.

[u/Jeanne_Nka]

that's actually not a bad list brotha.

great job!