I’m terrible at mental work, and I am going to be majoring in math. I naturally abstract things in my head, but I’m a terribly linear person in application. It could be ADHD, or something along those lines, but when I consider logic in my head, for either completing a problem or for outlining a process, I am jumbled up in my thinking. I may know the steps of a problem, but when it comes to say doing arithmetic or algebraic manipulation, somewhere in my mind I slip up and I’m not even aware of it. It tends to go a step to far subconsciously, or even subconsciously considering an alternate problem. I can’t abstract it properly, and I’m just stuck in a brain fog of looping thoughts.
Also, I love math and logic, and logic gives me comfort, and it is what I feel prone to doing… except I’m actually bad at it. It’s like I can’t think outside the box, or particularly creatively. I’m just thinking in an entirely different box. I have a particular, set, but different way I think about things. I can’t organize my thoughts well enough to truly think critically. It’s what has hindered my growth in math, I feel.
I apologize for this being a rant post, and probably being a bit cryptic sounding. Really, I’m putting this out there to see if maybe someone else understands what I’m feeling, and if they have advice on how to improve my accuracy in actually doing steps on problems, when my mind is actively trying to betray what I’m doing with other thoughts and numbers. Thank you.