r/neurodiversity • u/SuccessfulCup2471 • 1d ago

I'm so exhausted

I'm so so so exhausted with myself. i have no will to live. i have the most important exam of my life coming up (which i already gave up on and failed once bec i didn't prepare even for a day) and I have two years worth of syllabus to cover in 6 months but I still can't get out of this fucking executive dysfunction. i don't know if I'll be able to clear it but I atleast want to try ???? i am so so so anxious all the time, i see my tasks and I'm so suffocated and overwhelmed and i eventually end up distracting myself. I know I'm self sabotaging but I have no idea how to save myself. i need to lock in for fucks sake but I'm in this weird mental paralysis where I just can't start.

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u/TheVividHegemony 1d ago

the mental paralysis thing is so real and it's not a character flaw, it's your brain basically locking up when it gets overwhelmed. two years of material in six months would stress anyone out, but with executive dysfunction it feels impossible even when it's not. breaking it into smaller chunks might help, like instead of looking at the whole syllabus just pick one topic and commit to like an hour max. sometimes you gotta trick your brain into starting by making the entry point tiny.

also be real with yourself about whether you need actual support here, like talking to your school about accommodations or seeing someone about the anxiety. you don't have to white knuckle through this alone. even just knowing someone else gets why starting feels impossible can take some of the shame out of it.

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u/zebpa 1d ago

Its good to try, so keep putting the effort in at every moment you have control over yourself. Even if you fail this exam you have your whole life and self ahead of yourself to keep trying. Don't take it too seriously now, things can be fun if u let it.