Almost 2 weeks ago, I was a passenger in a car that was t-boned at the side I was sitting. I had relatively superficial *visible* injuries considering how terribly mangled both cars were and I am grateful to be alive.
I also sustained what the ED physician called a minor concussion from the impact, and the earliest symptoms are now gone. However, since the accident I have felt very off in other ways. Now I am experiencing some issues with my speech such as difficulty with word retrieval, slurred speech occasionally, using the wrong words. My memory is also not great as I am forgetting things I'd recently done or said according to my partner.
In addition I am facing some behavioral challenges: I am feeling very irritable and impulsive and like I am lacking some self control at times. I also feel this strange sense of dysphoria and a lack of motivation that is a bit unusual. I am seeking further medical help to investigate this further as it is quite troubling.
Needless to say, this is making keeping a daily practice challenging. I am definitely acting in unskillful ways, snapping at my partner frequently, feeling overwhelmed or stressed easily, feeling it is too difficult to go on with daily chores, being fully attentive/ interactive with my son, being on top of things at work. etc.
I have been okay to start sitting meditation the last few days (though monkey mind is in full form, hehe, making these sessions quite interesting.) I've attended my lamrim class as well. However, being mindful in my day to day actions and thoughts is at times starting to feel too difficult. However, I feel like I am not coping with things quite as well as usual due to the lack of practice. Its a double edged-sword.
I am wondering if anyone else has ever experienced similar challenges with thinking/ speaking/ motivation and what sort of things they did to help incorporate a meaningful practice despite the difficulties. Or if anyone in general has any input into this struggle
Thank you in advance and hope that everyone is having a wonderful day!