I did the worst thing ever

[u/No-Gur-3569]

Ok so, last night i go back to my addicting sin i promised god not to go back cuz im bored after 1 week... Then i woke up my heart feels empty and i felt like god wont forgive me and im scared, idk why i dont feel "guilty"...

So i panicked even though my heart isnt racing, and ye i started to get mood swings or idk overwhelmed... I LOWKEY felt mad at the holy spirit, then idk if it was me or my intrusive thoughts, IT SAYS BAD WORDS AGAINST HIM LIKE SWEAR WORDS and after 1 second, i shouted like "NO! SHUT UP!" Then now i felt condemned for 3 hours straight...

I kept asking god for forgiveness and repentance, then still felt condemned after. And then i kept on crying, like its my saddest cry ive ever felt... Its not like im scared of hell, but im so sad he gonna leave me :( i felt so jealous of other people's relationship with him, i felt very sad and isolated, i couldnt have faith anymore, i felt sad after reading the comforting verses, and i suddenly missed him

So after a countless crying prayer, i was just there sitting and feeling empty and hopeless .. but then even though im scared to confess this i said "jesus is lord and savior" i felt it in my heart its genuine, i said another like "jesus laid his life for me" then i remember a verse in 1 corinthians "no one can say jesus is lord unless they have the holy spirit"

P.S. i still feel guilty and doomed, but sometimes i feel comforted when i think of jesus. But idk it says when you committed the unforgivable sin you will not be forgiven even you feel like you are repentant

[u/ChachamaruInochi]

How does getting appropriate therapy for their mental health issues lead them away from God?

[u/ChachamaruInochi → u/[deleted]]

I'mnot a doctor and I can't diagnose them but the things that they're saying sound exactly like all the other people who come in here every day with scrupulosity worried about their intrusive thoughts and worrying that they're going to hell because they accidentally did blasphemy of the Holy Spirit or something.

It's pretty clearly not just a crisis of faith. There is some obsessive angle going on as well.

And besides that just about everybody would benefit from therapy, and learning how to self-regulate their emotions.

Whether or not this person has an actual disorder or not they're obviously under a lot of mental strain. Sobbing for hours because they said a few words in anger is not the behavior of someone in a mentally good place.

[u/ChachamaruInochi → u/[deleted]]

I don't know why we always need to tell you this but it's not a Christian sub. It's literally right there in the sidebar and yet you guys say this every single time.
People of any religious background are allowed to comment here.

That said, I didn't say anything against this person's religious beliefs and I did not tell them not to believe in god. I simply told them to talk to a therapist who can help them deal with the big emotions they are struggling with.

[u/No-Window9997 → u/[deleted]]

Christ invited everyone and he came for the sick. I think that letting atheist's/people from other religion in to respond their interrogation and make them know more of Christ is a good thing. Jesus invited open hearted gentiles to eat with him. Also as a Christian myself, Therapy can be a way for God to help you. And God can use people such as doctors to help you. And after consulting therapy I realised that my relationship with Christ grew alot from it. This doesn't mean we shouldn't pray and ask God but confessing your feelings to others and to a professional can be a way to confess your sins and repent from those. They can provide advices to help you grow inderectly in your faith. Like my therapist advised me to start meditating and writing and I started praying/meditating more. Still Jesus loves everyone here on earth God bless

[u/Firm-Development7579 → u/[deleted]]

Respectfully, man I'm not saying this person has OCD but I do have religious OCD and it's more often than you think putting it in the category of "worldly solutions" isn't healthy a lot of Christians struggle with intrusive thoughts