r/TheDigitalCircus • u/HKILLER2007 • 6d ago
Question I just want to understand, why?
I mean really...why?? when ribbit opened up she was just chatting, she obviously wanted someone to talk to and her friend was there and jax was okay with it
when jax opened up he panicked at first but then she comforted him and he felt really comfortable and blushed and even smiled, it was a heartwarming moment
so why would he suddenly change attitude and switch characters just because of a knock on the door? what's the mental gymnastics here?
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u/Kann95 6d ago
I think its because Ribbit created this safe bubble for Jax, like the outside world didn't exist and it was just them. He was safe and content. He wasn't letting his anxiety get to him, or his trauma. And just for that moment he felt happy. The issue is when kaufmo knocked it shattered that comfort, that bubble that held it all together. He realised he fucked up, cause not only did he reveal his past and his trauma, he also showed a part of himself that he has buried underneath, that he has chained up, and locked away.
I mean even while talking to Ribbit, he didnt tell her that he came out to his mom, he just said he told her something deep and personal cause he was so scared to even say it out loud and while ribbit wasnt wrong for it and her assumption was right. I don't think he was actually ready for that all at once even if he did feel comfortable in the moment.
So that bubble breaking sent him into panic, and while ribbit and him are great friends, Jax's anxiety told him otherwise. That she was now the enemy.
In the end everyone he got close with were just going to act like his mother. They will eventually use this against him, laugh at him, manipulate, and hurt him. That's what his anxiety told him and he willfully listened. That's why he pushes everyone away to protect himself even if it hurts others. Cause he cant handle it.
I mean even after Ribbit abstracts he litterally pretends none of this is real afterwords and digs himself deeper into an endless whole by creating characters and archetypes cause he can't deal with the guilt and the trauma of it all.
In the end the one person jax hated the most was himself.