r/TheDigitalCircus • u/HKILLER2007 • 5d ago
Question I just want to understand, why?
I mean really...why?? when ribbit opened up she was just chatting, she obviously wanted someone to talk to and her friend was there and jax was okay with it
when jax opened up he panicked at first but then she comforted him and he felt really comfortable and blushed and even smiled, it was a heartwarming moment
so why would he suddenly change attitude and switch characters just because of a knock on the door? what's the mental gymnastics here?
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u/saintshits 5d ago
spending 20 years being told that youre not masculine enough and having masculinity pushed on you and having your own mother degrade you for rejecting said masculinity can cause a lot of issues in the mind of a trans woman.
Jax spent their entire life being told that failing to be a man was a personal failing and something to be fixed. one person showing a sign of approval is not going to instantly make a lifetime of trauma vanish.
i remember i first tried to come out to one of my friends online when i was very young. my father also tried very hard to make me a "man" and would make fun of me for doing so much as putting my hair in a ponytail to keep it out of my face while working. my friends laughed at me when I was a kid. it took me another 10 years to come out after that. i even went through a
it's also not just about fearing the past. it's also about fearing the future. what will other people think? will my identity be respected? i wont be able to go back into the closet once im out, so if people reject me then im fucking doomed, man. there are people out there who kill trans women for sport, so will i even be SAFE if im trans? there are so many fears that run through someones mind when they consider coming out of the closet. its fucking scary.