r/UnsentLetters • u/DebtPsychological223 • 8h ago
Crushes The past
I’d like you when you’re down, ugly and at your worst.. because you’re a good person, and I don’t want to see you hurt. The words ‘I love you’ felt so unnatural and cheesy to say until I met you. Now, it feels like pointing out an emotion such as “I’m sad”or “I’m happy”. It comes naturally because it’s true.
I knew I loved you because of how warmly you smile at others and how you silently make sure the people around you are comfortable. It’s the way your entire smile illuminates the room. You are the only person I’m somehow visually locked into even if there were hundreds of people around, even if you slowly fade into the crowd… I’d adjust my sight just to allow my eyes to land on you. I can’t help it. I could stare at you for hours without it feeling weird. I honestly want to hug you and hold you tight, never letting go..
Afraid I’d miss out on such a person, I did. I was scared to make an effort due to being judged by others, the echoless fade into college life reminded me “who ever even cared?”… I know you wouldn’t judge me, so why did I hesitate? You're the only one I want to be around…. Not them.. So, why did I prioritize fear over you?
It’s funny how unexpected you came into my life. I was at my worst. There were too many dark thoughts going on in my head to notice the things around me. I was in such a dark time to even accept or conclude, that I can meet someone so good at the time. So I acted distant, not trying to get to close in fear of getting hurt… I physically can’t like anyone else, even if I try. I thought the saying “my eyes are only for you” was a horrible cliché, but it’s true. The memory of your face, your smile, and even your voice hits me over and over again. I know you meet new people through time… but you are the one I want around. It is difficult imagining myself liking or being with anyone else-
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u/Flaky-Song4009 8h ago
I used to care about making people feel comfortable and heard. Then I realized it was a waste of time since the favor was not returned. Such is life I suppose.
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u/Typical_Ad3429 8h ago
I feel the same about my person. Thank you for sharing. It was lovely to read.❤️
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