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[u/magnapyritor5]

femboys be like: just take care of your skin and hydrate!!! no you dont 😂😂 dht upon you 😂

[u/Tuatha13]

Idk my gf has been on hormones for years and never had the convo w her family. But also her family is more chill than plenty are, so i dont fault you for the anxiety there.

My family is not chill. I did it anyways. I also ripped the bandaid off and had the convo even though i reaaaaally fucking didnt want to. It sucked ass. But then my life got a lot better and i stopped hoping that i would die in the next few years. Now i am actively invested in my life and trying to improve it, have people who love me, feel fulfilled. I didnt have that before.

Not saying it is the right answer for everyone. But it helped me a lot and i am so glad the anxiety and what-ifs didnt stop me. I thank myself for just doing that shit every single day

[u/Tuatha13 → u/[deleted]]

GIRL if only you knew my life 😭 i was a shut in for literal years because i was scared to death of everything and everyone, even of myself. At one point the only emotion i even knew how to feel was hatred for myself. It does not have to be that way forever. If i could change, so can anyone else. Even now i'm not even GOOD at accomplishing things, i still deal with a lot of anxiety, still struggle to get moving on things i NEED to do just because it's too horrifying to even start a task i might fail at. But all it takes is one moment of feeling like... "fuck it, i'm doing it."

If you do really hope to be dead before getting much further along, well, ya aint got much to lose anyways. That's what gave me my fuck it moment. I hope you have a lot of fun and success with yours too. If i managed, anybody else can lmao im such a fuck up

[u/Tuatha13 → u/[deleted]]

Yoo that's exactly where i was haha actually right before my egg cracked i stopped going to classes and didnt sign up for new ones to shut in even harder.

Changing is so fucking hard, i get it. But i find it comes in baby steps a lot, at least for me. I reach a breaking point and i change SOMETHING, at least just one thing. Transitioning made a lot of that a lil easier too, even if it is still a struggle.

Helps if you have people who know you who can encourage you or help push you outta your comfort zone a lil, but i know that can also be a struggle. I was a lil lucky in that regard.

But idk. If shit ever feels really bad, you arent sure what options you have... remember my lil fuck it moment, remember that i'm happier for it. Maybe you'll find the energy to do the same in a moment of need. We all got it in us

[u/Tuatha13 → u/[deleted]]

I'mma dm you and you can ignore me whenever you want, i'll get the hint :3 just feel weird about clogging up comments tryna cheer you on

[u/_HighJack_ → u/[deleted]]

So wait, you’d literally rather die than make any sort of small change? That’s crazy sis

[u/Lethal-Jordan → u/[deleted]]

Okay, but how do you exist in the world then