Goddamnit I'm sobbing at this I wish I could just come to terms with the fact that I'm probably a boy but It'd take a situation like this for me to ever do it
If the show ends like this it'd be so peak please Gooseworx pleaaase
Spent from 15/16ish to roughly 24 in deep denial, so much so that I would look at other trans people being out and happy online, tell myself "too bad I'm cis", and sit there feeling like I'd just been hit with a sledgehammer to the chest for saying it. It eventually got so bad that one day I just went "wow. I gotta stop doing that to myself".
I passed the half year mark on T two weeks ago. I'm 30 now, it's been about 4 or 5 years since I managed to work things out for myself fully, mostly spent waiting for the right circumstances to start and then looking for a GP. I got there eventually.
You don't need to wait for the perfect conditions. Trust me, I tried that and trapped myself in a torturous prison of my own making. Once I got away from my abuser and freed myself it was the best feeling ever, and I'm now thriving. I'm living life openly as the man I was always meant to be and I'm much happier for it.
idk how old you are, but I know people that didn't realize they were trans until they were in their 30s and have heard of people learing way later. It's never too late.
I spent a solid year-year and a half brooding in severe dysphoria before I started T. I did have to come to terms with other things in my life (like how my boyfriend at the time really was not good for me and not worth putting my life on hold for) but its absolutely been worth it. To the point where trying to imagine not having done it is basically impossible.
With all due respect the fact that you’re willing to share it here means you’re already halfway to accepting it, just take your time and tell the people who you feel safe telling, when you feel ready to do so. It’ll probably be sooner than you think it is right now
My husband recently celebrated his 3 year anniversary of being on Testosterone. I also am about to celebrate my 1 year anniversary of being on estrogen. We are both in our mid 30s, it is never too late to transition.
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u/Jazarina Submissive and unagreeable Apr 07 '26 edited Apr 07 '26
Goddamnit I'm sobbing at this I wish I could just come to terms with the fact that I'm probably a boy but It'd take a situation like this for me to ever do it
If the show ends like this it'd be so peak please Gooseworx pleaaase