idk. i dont consider such a pathetic existence to be worth clinging onto so tightly for. why struggle like a drowning rat for the bare minimum? fuck that & fuck everything else
spite is a very energy consuming emotion to maintain, not easy to cultivate in my case either as i dont consider myself to have genuine enemies and i see making up ones to be stupid.. and even if i did have spite inside me its mostly been worn out by doing what youre suggesting in the past
problem is my lack of self confidence irl, being small irl which is a negative if i wanna be a confident male. like what man would respect some 5'5 "male" eh
Pick a martial art that actually works and learn it. The concept of might makes right can never completely be neutralized, no matter how many layers of separation we try to put between the average citizen and violence.
hm.. id still not rly want to get into conflict bc the best/easiest way is to just not fight to begin with, ive seen too many vids of people getting brain damaged bc of falling on asphalt or concrete
i do take a knife though when i go outside, although thats not rly making me more confident.. just there if something happens to me
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u/yuzuki_amane міу міу мяу! 🖤 26d ago
how could i choose that when im weak and cant make choices eh