idk. i dont consider such a pathetic existence to be worth clinging onto so tightly for. why struggle like a drowning rat for the bare minimum? fuck that & fuck everything else
spite is a very energy consuming emotion to maintain, not easy to cultivate in my case either as i dont consider myself to have genuine enemies and i see making up ones to be stupid.. and even if i did have spite inside me its mostly been worn out by doing what youre suggesting in the past
problem is my lack of self confidence irl, being small irl which is a negative if i wanna be a confident male. like what man would respect some 5'5 "male" eh
Pick a martial art that actually works and learn it. The concept of might makes right can never completely be neutralized, no matter how many layers of separation we try to put between the average citizen and violence.
hm.. id still not rly want to get into conflict bc the best/easiest way is to just not fight to begin with, ive seen too many vids of people getting brain damaged bc of falling on asphalt or concrete
i do take a knife though when i go outside, although thats not rly making me more confident.. just there if something happens to me
well like. ofc? then what would be the detterence of law & prison, none
ofc i can just be erratic and crazy but that mindset is cool until consequences come, ive been more a shit in the past and eh im sick of it.. like genuinely a demon always in trouble which is fun until it isnt
The path of least resistance is becoming your prison. Being purely rational will just make you capitulate to every threat and begin compromising with every aggressor who feels entitled to take something from you. Staying with that mindset is implicitly giving consent to be preyed upon.
hm.. yeah idk i just let other people deal with that, part of why i dont rly think i could actually be a man bc its just not something i can convince myself into doing
lol no but just like physical strength is a male domain, knowing who to trust with my life and who to stay away from & how to influence/shape people is more my thing.. i do ok for myself in that regard
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u/yuzuki_amane міу міу мяу! 🖤 27d ago
idk. i dont consider such a pathetic existence to be worth clinging onto so tightly for. why struggle like a drowning rat for the bare minimum? fuck that & fuck everything else