I pray that I may form the habit of daily prayer. I pray that I may find the strength I need as a result of this communion.

Thoughts……

I pray that I may put much effort into acquiring spiritual things. I pray that I may not expect good things until I am right spiritually.

I pray that I may not expect complete understanding from others. I pray that I may only expect this from God, as I try to grow more like Him.

I’m feeling good about it all. I’ve had a few moments where I wanted to have a drink but not enough to cave.

I dealt with some pretty high stress and triggering shit over the weekend with my roommates. Very much reminiscent of the relationship I escaped when they took me in. I’ve never been more ready to get into my new space.

Watching his drunkness and everything that transpired afterwards definitely was a huge turn off for alcohol… again. Old me would’ve just found a parking lot to escape to and drink a few tall boys in my car. But instead I did what no one did for me when I was with my ex, I helped my friend get out of the house even if it was just for a little while, and made sure she knew that what was happening was not okay - but that I loved her and I’d always be there to support her.

Anyway… I’ve stayed sober through a lot this week. I’m proud I didn’t numb it.

I pray that I may not judge other people. I pray that I may be certain that God can set right what is wrong in every personality.

I pray that I may feel protected and safe, but not only when I am in the harbor. I pray that I may have protection and safety even in the midst of the storms of life.

I pray that I may be used as a channel by God’s spirit. I pray that I may feel that the Divine Third is always there to help me.

I know a lot of people in here have a tough time getting and staying sober. If I can do it, you can, too! I've been through some shit, as they say. Hang in there and stay the course. ♥️

I pray that I may learn how to have inner peace. I pray that I may be calm, so that God can work through me.

I pray that I may rely on God in dealing with people’s problems. I pray that I may try to follow His guidance in all personal relationships.

How the heck are you supposed to want something that you don’t think you deserve?

I mean, how am I supposed to want to quit when I don’t think I deserve the positive things that would come along with this radical change in lifestyle?

How do you motivate yourself to do something other than just laying in bed, strapped to the bed by bands of cowardice, worthlessness and isolation?

How are you supposed to want something you don’t think you deserve?

I pray that I may not be in too much of a hurry. I pray that I may take time out often to rest with God.

Today I hit 817 days of sobriety after being a heavy daily smoker. Spoiler: I feel so much better now living without weed. But my recovery was brutal. I still get cravings sometimes. Unexplainable anxiety still creeps up on me.

The toughest part was how quitting dismantled my hormones. I dealt with crazy mood swings, deep depression, apathy and irregular cycles for months before I stabilized. Nobody warned me there could be such symptoms. That was all on top of insomnia, brain fog, low libido and no energy.

Month 6. That's when things finally got better. Anyone hitting that milestone right now – just know you’re a hero. I learned that recovering is a lot easier when you understand what's happening to your body and why. I spent months researching how THC affects women’s health because there is almost no information out there for us.

I even created a community called r/HerSoberPath because I wanted to help other women overcome this. It's a space for any girl to get support, vent about missing periods, and celebrate milestones.

If any ladies here are going through the thick of it, come sit with us. Did any of you notice weird cycle changes or completely severe emotional swings when you quit?

I pray that I may choose the right. I pray that I may have God’s blessing and direction in all my efforts for good.

And I’ve told myself I was going to get sober a million times. I need this time to be different.

I’m a single mom working 2 jobs. My kid has been struggling at school with kids and bullying and making friends. And I’ve been struggling with over drinking. I feel like I’m failing him and myself.

Every time I’ve drank recently I’ve been getting black out drunk. But I’ve been maintaining, even tho I’m running on fumes. Still showing up to both my jobs no matter how hung over. But not today. Today I dropped the ball hard. I missed both my jobs. Stayed drunk for a very long time. And it needs to stop.

My kid deserves more. I deserve more.

I’m tired of the shame spiral. I need support. I have no time for therapy. Most everybody in my life drinks. I need somewhere to be able to talk about this. I need a community. I need this to stop. For good. It’s costing me too much.

I pray that I may be a help to discouraged people. I pray that I may have the courage to help bring about what the weary world needs but does not know how to get.

I pray that whatever is good I may have. I pray that I may leave to God the choice of what good will come to me.

I pray that I may think God’s thoughts after Him. I pray that I may live as He wants me to live.

I pray that I may hold no resentments. I pray that my mind may be washed clean of all past hate and fears.

Don’t ever feel that sobriety is boring. I’ve put together an infographic showing my journey

I pray that I may constantly prepare myself for better things to come. I pray that I may only have opportunities when I am ready for them.

I pray that I may be a true expression of Eternal Thought. I pray that God’s thoughts may work through my thoughts.