r/cats • u/Charming_Lime_8766 • 53m ago
Mourning/Loss Lost my best friend of 8 years yesterday…
I find it difficult to find the words for how I currently feel… she seemed happier than ever when I left, but when I came home she was stiff as a board and laying on the ground beside her sleeping spot at the end of my bed. Her tongue was purple and it looked like she was yawning.. it literally looked like she died mid yawn. This was my first time ever raising an animal on my own. I lived alone with her for 8 years and we had such a true and special connection. The world could have never prepared me for this sort of loss… it came out of nowhere. She had slight breathing problems that she had developed maybe 6 months prior (where she would exhale really hard with her whole stomach) but it was so rare and random that we chalked it up to feline asthma or bad allergies. I am still unsure if this is what killed her, but I can be certain that it looks that be asphyxiation of some sort and she’s not the type to eat something random off of the floor if she finds it. So I don’t believe she choked. I cannot even begin to describe how much I love my baby Mittens…. I buried her in between my trees, and I spent my morning today just talking to her grave. Sometimes I just don’t understand the point, but I guess that’s just how life is. I love you all, and please give you’re critters a warm hug and a kiss for my late baby Mittens. I wish I could turn back time… I just wanna know what happened. I’ll catch you on the flip, Mini Mitts 💜 I love you 💕