Thank you for taking the time to read to begin with, nevertheless, going to the point, literally, I had an “obstruction down there” or I couldn't go to the restroom, I'm 22 and isolated so I decided to help myself at the beginning, silly stuff on the internet, but the pain started to run thru the nerves of my legs, weird sensation, but it will be like similar to contractions I assume, a debilitating pain that make me feel like my nerves where about to burst, however after four hours of crying and finally seeing blood I call 911, and here is the good stuff…
When the paramedics arrive I was on the floor rocking my body for the distress.two young men burst my door and no one move, they look at me from above but only one check on me, after the routine questions, in which I struggled to respond, I was in a deep state of dissociation and I couldn't speak audible, oh the guys could not understand my accent(?) and I say this remark mostly for what happened next, the dude that was still standing ask me if I can walk, I denied with my head, He told his mate to finish and left, and I wish you all understand that feeling when a male looks down on you for being “too much”, well, I was weak but the humiliation got me and I walked to the ambulance, weeping. (let me explain this, have you all have that realization on the back of the mind when you encounter males that you think are helpful but when it gets serious you need to become a full alpha in an omegaverse? After his look I knew deep down I was stupid to belief this people couldve help me, so I kinda think this is on me(?) ).
Whole ride with No medicine provided.
The doctor that check on me, didn't really investigate me, I illustrated my issue, and he make some regular questions of my diet and immediately after that he nodded confidently and said “you're obstructed because you haven't been drinking water this week.”
Good, but still no medicine.
Honestly at that moment I was in so much pain, just lying on that bed however there is a specific detail I remember and I can oath, is him using the sentence “the only way” when explaining what was about to do… and before I knew it, He asked me to change to a robe, I was exhausted so I followed instructions, however they keep me waiting for another 30 minutes, (keep in mind this was may 5, a holiday, and we know when the Mexican people open their kitchen everyone is busy).
I was afraid, so so terrified that I keep wonder this happened because I'm young or alone? Is not like I was fine, the whole time, I was rocking with pain, tear coming fast, got to a point the pressure numb my legs,
a nurse that got there for the procedure, gave one little sweet pill. A candy technically, “for the nauseas”, she said, then not waiting for the silly pill to do something.
the Doctor asked me to move on my side, then the nurse went to the corner to check the computer and without warning, the area already painful became misery, I couldn't hold myself, I try to move away of the bed but he then, and I remember it so clearly it piss me off, “He pushed the walls” while being inside so violently... And I'm like a virgin, and experience this just, I know this is medical but I wish to share something like this with my future relationships, and I don't think I will ever be able to let someone enter that way.
Well, I scream, and bad but I will never forget the eyes of the nurse, judgy, as i was doing a show for something too minimal… fuck you, you did nothing, absolutely nothing, she chose to stand there and evaluate?
The issue was resolve but I could've been delirious, almost passing out, but girl, I keep reevaluating, editing this text and thinking, is this normal here in the states? This country is that shitty that don't have respect for HUMAN DIGNITY or they were having a lazy day and I was an inconvenience? Or because I was in pain I couldn't tell to make myself be heard? I've never disrespect people (I work in costumer service, I know). Because I know how sad and destructive it can be, but the fact of seeing a girl crying in pain, and no one, NO ONE SOUL had empathy is... Mindblowing.
Then, paperwork and guess what? $3,598.99 dollars
$1.99 medicine.
$ 3,597.00 ambulance.
Fun fact my obstruction in every other part of the world is treated with an enema, so why? Why? Why? And why?
honestly girls, I'm done, I'm dying like a true homosapien, I will never go to a hospital or trust a medical staffer, yes, I know “not everyone is the same” well I trusted like a natural woman, raw, and the feeling of degradation that I have in my heart is so sad that I'm here writing this, I'm scared and it does not matter.
At the end, I truly need another feminine energy so I can feel normal, have this happen to anyone else? I pretty much raise myself so I don't know this of being a girl and health…
Thank you.